Life's TOUGH

Moved

2010-01-13T16:21:00.000+08:00

here's the address .

I love u people.

http://itsnotsosimple.wordpress.com/

sigh

2009-11-22T22:47:00.000+08:00

So so insignificant .

Emoness

2009-11-20T09:38:00.002+08:00

I knew it.

Should have followed my instinct.

But I fell into it .

And now , when i think about that moment when my instinct hit me , i feel stupid .

25

2009-11-20T08:08:00.008+08:00

1 - I am having a study break of 6 weeks now . NO . Its not a holiday .

2 - I have to master 4 systems : Cardiovascular system , Respiratory System , Hematology , Gastrointestinal System in 6 weeks . Minus one week of Kuala Kubu Baru Rotation . Minus one week of slacking after minor exam . Minus Christmas week . Which means i have 3 weeks only .

3 - I have to master clinical skills too .

4 - I want a Nikon D60 DSLR . Still thinking of how i am getting the money for it . Starbucks maybe ? Translator ? Promoter ?

5 - I want a Dell 11z laptop . Going to bug my dad for it .

6 - Made a new friend . Someone who i respect and admire a lot . Been hanging out with this friend a lot lately .

7 - Found someone to train ping pong with .

8 - Did some crazy stuff with the someone .

9 - Facebook and MSN less lately .

10 - Participated in my first 800m run and road relay .

11 - Won my first gold and silver medal for running .

12 - Joined Mizuno Wave Run 2009 and came in 30th for my category .

13 - Realized that i get nervous no matter what i do . Play piano , table tennis competition , Mock clinical skills examination . Sigh .

14 - Made a huge bunch of mistakes AGAIN when being pianist in church .

15 - Made a good bunch of friends from sports events .

16 - I'm jealous of my friends who have a normal friendship with someone .

17 - Don't like people who keep pushing ( not physically ) me .

18 - Want to go for this movie called Cherry Blossom ( one of the EU film festival movies ) which is only played in GSC pavillion on Sunday 22nd of Nov 5 pm .

19 - Realize that we should spent more time traveling and seeing the world while we are still students .

20 - Going to meet up with Bao Ling , Wan Xin and Reena . Beta ?

21 - Stopped jogging for 2 weeks . Ate chocolates everyday for 2 weeks . I'm round .

22 - Wants to develop interest and skills for photography .

23 - Emo-ing these few days .

24 - Won't initiate chats with someone from now on . Coz its pointless !

25 - Is in love with this song by David Tao called 你的歌

I Love Running

2009-10-12T23:45:00.003+08:00

I enjoy running . It is some sort of medication for my soul . It never fails to lift me up .

Only recently , i experienced running as a form of torture .

I just came back from Road Relay competition which involved running 2.9km . Each team consist of 5 people . 3 guys and 2 girls .

Flashes of what happened just now is running through my head now .

First runner from our team sped off . He was fast . But others were faster . We were 4th .

2nd runner received the baton . We managed to catch up . We were near 3rd .

3rd runner threw his leg forward the furthest he could . And we were 3rd .

I was the 4th runner . With the baton in my hand , i ran as fast as my fat leg brought me . Up the first slope . I see the runner of the next team just a bit ahead of me ... The team which was leading ( no.1 ) was no where in sight . Sigh . How long till i see her ? I thought . And i continued running but at a more comfortable pace .

"I can do this . I can do this . Don't stop .She's just a few steps away. Don't stop . Speed up ." I kept repeating to myself . After the checkpoint , i passed the girl who was ahead of me . On down , one more to go . I could hear See Wei cheering for Taurus ( our team ) . " Time to hit 4th gear ". From then on . My head was totally blank .It was dark . I couldn't see where i was running . My muscles were filled with lactic acid . I'm 2nd now . I came to a curb . Roshnee and Cyril ( my team mates who were there as marshals ) were there . They came close to me . I heard them cheering . " Come on Shi Yi . You can do it Shi Yi " I heard Roshnee's voice . I heard Cyril's voice . I passed the curb . And i saw my opponent . I could see that she was struggling . So was I . I felt like stopping . I really really did wanted to stop . But i couldn't . " Its just that bit further . Overtake her . Mess with her confidence . " All kinds of strategies suddenly flooded my mind .

I reached the slopes . " Open stride . Open stride . " A Tip from Jia Wei ( my team mate ) before the run started . First slope accomplished . A 100 meter flat road ahead . Then came the 2nd slope down . I was closer to her now . Just a few faster and bigger strides , and i'll be ahead of her . When should i pass her ? Would i be sprinting too early to the finish line . " SPRINT and go ALL OUT from the sign board . " Another tip from Jia Wei before the run . And i passed my opponent .

I felt my heart pumping so hard . "PUSH ON. Just a little more " The finish line was in sight . I had to tell myself that . Even though , it felt so far away . " She's catching up . She's catching up . All out now "

I sprinted the last 100meters . And it was then . I felt like crying . I really wanted to stop . It was such a terrible feeling . Painful . A torture . But , how could i stop when i was so near the finish line . "Come on , Come on " i repeated in my mind . I breathed so hard , I think a few leaves actually flew off the ground . After a few more breath , i was sounding out the words " come on, come on " when i exhaled. I wonder if anyone heard me .

I saw Jia Wei waiting with his palms stretched out to me . He was ready to speed off as the last runner of our team . I picked my legs up for the last time . Pushed my muscles to the maximum . Placed the baton in his palms . There ... My battle was over .

We were leading for that few moments till the last runner of the other team caught up . We came in 2nd . It was just 10 seconds difference . But , i was really happy . Happy that i pushed myself .

I really needed to get my thoughts here . . . Its been quite some time since i pushed myself that hard . All thanks to running . I now know i can achieve my goals if i pushed myself hard enough. It just takes a little bit of determination and endurance . And if you could endure that few moments of pain until the very end . You are a winner .

Busy beee ?

2009-10-02T15:48:00.002+08:00

Arrrgh ! I've been so busy lately .

Actually , no , i think I'm not that busy after all . I just waste a lot of time . Sleeping when i don't need to sleep at all really takes up a lot of time . Ferreting around my cupboard and the refrigerator for food, when i don't feel hungry at all , also takes up a lot of time . I'm so very lazy compared to the days in Semester 1 and 2 and especially form 6 .

I realize i only come to my blog really late at night . Guess that i've found the time when I feel like pouring out my soul and do some reflecting .

Reflecting it shall be ... GREAT. . .All i can think now is that i really need to get serious and study . I haven't been studying . I remember telling myself i need to start studying hard after how terrible i fumbled in the last examination .Its been 5 weeks since . Still the same though . Its so hard to put words into action .

But , i've improved a little . I managed to cut the Facebook addiction to less then 2 hours per day .Yes , i can spend a lot of time on Facebook just looking through photo albums and click click click away . Need to further reduce it . Ha! See , i ' ve got self-control . Though , i have to give some credit to my ever super slow and unstable internet connection .

Next week will be a busy week . Not because of sleep and the food in my cupboard . But , IMU cup . The table tennis representative ( the guy who has to find for players for the competition ) just called me an hour ago , asking me to play for the house . Not because i'm good at it , but because no one else wants to play .

I initially put down my name in hopes of training myself and improve my ping pong playing skills ... but I couldn't attend the trainings and there were so few trainings . Thus , I decided not to play . Now , the competition is just 3 days away . I shudder at imagining the volume of laughter that would fill the halls of IMU . EEeek ！

I would very much prefer not to embarrass myself . I can't take public humiliation very well .

But then , the guy was so ... kesian + desperate . I rejected him at first . But , I could hear from his voice and tone that he's really fed up already and just wants to get his job done . And since I was the representative of the event - road relay , i knew very well how difficult it was to get ppl to come for training . So ... yup , i have agreed to embarrass myself on Monday .

Sigh ... stupid decisions i make these days .

6 more days

2009-09-13T02:58:00.002+08:00

Why am i so easily persuaded , distracted ?

First i deleted the MSN contact . It helped me much . Now , i deleted the FB connection . Lets see how it goes .

Christian songs are the best for healing the emo soul .

Would you let go of your ego and let your enemy win ?

2009-09-08T18:31:00.009+08:00

27 “But to you who are willing to listen, I say, love your enemies! Do good to those who hate you.

28 Bless those who curse you. Pray for those who hurt you.

29 If someone slaps you on one cheek, offer the other cheek also. If someone demands your coat, offer your shirt also.

30 Give to anyone who asks; and when things are taken away from you, don’t try to get them back.

31 Do to others as you would like them to do to you.

C's being all stingy and selfish now . Unwilling to share her stuff with me and A . I THINK she purposely kept her detergent so that we couldn't use it .She's pissed off ok . I feel , that's a bit immature . But who am i to judge her .

I still let her use my frying pan which she completely blackened and never wash after using . I let her use my bowls and utensils . I let her use the microwave .I let her use my kitchen roll . I let her use the mop .I let her finish my chilli sauce without making any noise .

Let me think if i used any of her stuff . I used her clothes hanger . I used her detergent before she took it away ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... ... yup , i guess that's it .

The bible said to offer her the other side of my cheek .

Which means that , even though she doesn't want to share her detergent , A and I offer her our detergent to use .

Which means that , even if she don't want to share her food with us , A and I give our food willingly to her .

Which means that , even if she took away her detergent , A and I don't ask it back from her .

Which means that , even if she emotionally hurt us , A and I don't do the same .

Which means that , even if she don't want to talk to us , A and I talk like normal to her .

Which means that , even if she look at us with hatred , A and I look at her as a family .

Which means that , even if she hated us , A and I hope the best for her .

It'll be tough . Life's a challenge .

*** photos are the 4 days 3 nights trip to Manado in August with my family.

Liar Liar Pants On Fire

2009-09-08T03:09:00.006+08:00

Someone just lied . Professionally . But , too bad , after putting all the effort of telling the lie , that someone is still unable to lie pass a MHS Beta brain . I feel so embarrassed for her . Imagine yourself telling lies to people who you plan to cheat . These people , know more than you'd expect . And after telling the lie , u found out that they actually watched you lie to them . In this scenario , I am the one watching her lie .

How can someone just lie without blinking ? How can someone make up lies so that she would seem noble and as innocent as a 3 year old and ... not feel a single guilt at all ?

Its really funny , as I rewind my thoughts back to the seconds she crapped . I still remember every movement she made and the tone she used when she lied . Its still fresh in my head .

You must be wondering what is it that she lied about . And maybe who she is .

Here goes .

So , the utility bills came in yesterday ... I came back , jaw dropped upon hearing the numbers . Each of us had to pay RM 150 which means . RM 75 per month per person . I would consider this expensive . Before she moved in , our bill was RM 30+ per person for 2 months . Each month would cost RM 15 + only ... Now , its 5 times increased . I couldn't believe the numbers i heard .

Side track a bit . Some relevant details you need to know . We'll label the " she " i'm referring to as C ( C for cheater , con artist , orang celaka , child's play ) and we'll label my other friend who's annoyed by C as A .

Its not the first time she got me and A disliking her . Its been like that for quite some time now . Me and A would always sit in the kitchen and complain about C . Mainly complaining about C's actions and the amount of electric and water C uses . You would need to stay under the same roof with C to really experience how it feels .

Back to the question . What did she do ? In short , she used too much electricity and water . And neither me nor A want to pay for the amount of electric and water she uses . Because , from my point of view , its not fair . I don't want to pay for what I am not using . If we equally divided the bill , that would mean A and I would be paying for the water and electricity C used . It would be a deed to help her pay off part of the bill . But , i 'd prefer walking the elderly across the road .

Yesterday night , A and I confronted her . I was the one who rolled the ball . We started off by talking about the electric bill because it was the electric bill that was the trouble . So , i suggested that all 3 of us practice abstinence . I proposed that all 3 of us refrain from using the air con for a month to see if there was any significant difference in the electric bill the next month . After having said that , C said " Actually , I haven't been turning on the air con since A's fan broke down because my skin bla bla bla ... and bla on somemore unreasonable excuses. " That .. was the first lie . A's air con broke down a month plus ago . It was just yesterday she and her bf enjoyed air con the whole night . It was just last week that she came out from her room wearing a scarve complaining that the air con was too cold . It was just last last week that the chilly air from her room cooled my feet when i stepped out from my room .

It just took a milisecond to register that she told a lie . Yup , and she made it seem that she was innocent . In a way , I could feel that she was blaming A and me ( coz my fan broke down recently ) for the elevation in the electric billl . I could rebut her because my fan broke down only last week , and the bill for last week is not accounted in this bill but the bill for next month . A , on the other hand , couldn't say anything . We moved on to the water bill .

The water bill was cheap . Even though it was cheap , I still felt the need to fairly pay for the bill . As C uses more water , A and I proposed that she paid extra . And she said ," Actually , i don't mind paying extra for water bill , but i only wash clothes ONE extra time ( she did emphasise the word " one " ) from both of u , don't tell me ,that, you also want to count . " That was the 2nd lie .

Kiss my gluteus maximus ( butt ) ok . A and I washed clothes once per week , using 35 litres of water each time and sometimes 45 litres of water . C , on the other hand , washes her clothes 3 times per week using 35 to 45 litres of water each time . I ain't stupid . I have eyes . I observe . I'm not dumb . I know I'm not the brightest . I know my brain slow a bit . BUT , 3 times is 3 times per week . Not ONE . And C could lie that she only washed extra 1 time compared to me and A . Totally not true at all .

When she lie , she's like damn kesian . The face like damn innocent . But then it has no effects on us gals . Too bad for her .

My other friend whom she was once closed to told me that C's ex housemates had the same problem with her . They didn't use air con . C's the only one in the unit who used air con . And after she moved in . The electric bill shot up . Consequently , the exhousemate kejam kejam force her to pay . And i think she did .

Besides this , A feels very annoyed by her actions . In a way , C doesn't give respect to A . And A has a soft spot . She'll help C despite the fact that its against her will . Lately, A complains much more about her to me . Can see that she already tak boleh tahan . A even said that she want to move out from this unit . Hope she changes her mind and stays on . Otherwise , things will turn out very ugly .

I know that C occasionally reads my blog . I'm not going to apologize . If she does read it , very good then . Save me the trouble of telling it to her face . Saves her the embarrassment too . She's lost our trust and respect .

At least , we know now what she's capable of .

Sushi Zanmai

2009-09-05T21:35:00.005+08:00

Sushiiiii ! Its been quite sometime since i had sushi . Went to Sushi Zanmai in the Gardens with Zhi Lin yesterday .

Why sushi zanmai ? Because everybody said it was better than Sushi King . And yup , it was Gooooood . I would definitely go for a second round .

Soft shell crab was on promotion . We ordered their Soft Shell crab Salad . And also their soft shells crab sushi rolled in caviar . Both were delicious . Cukup taste . Cukup special .

Ordered their teriyaki grilled salmon too . This one , so so only . The sushi on the belt were quite good too . Each sushi offered something different .

this ain't the teriyaki salmon, stop looking for the brown sauce

If compared between sushi zanmai and sushi king , I would say Sushi Zanmai wins in terms of variety and quality of food .

As for the price . I'm not too sure . Some said that Sushi Zanmai was cheaper . The cheapest plate of sushi on the belt was for RM 1.80 and our soft shell crab sushi was RM 6 for 6 of it .

Our bill came up to RM 34 per person . RM 34 for a plate of Teriyaki salmon . 3 Soft shell crab sushi . Soft shell crab salad . 6 plates of sushi from the belt which cost average RM 5 per plate . RM 34 for a full tummy , quality food , variety and good service .

I give it double thumbs up !

BLUEK

2009-09-05T20:47:00.003+08:00

I'm blogging because i am really bored . No motivation to do anything . Even jogging , the part i love most about everyday , didn't seem so satisfying as before . Now , i'm just vommiting out everything that's in my head now . Right , about jogging . I started running differently . Want to see what happens by the end of 2 weeks . Normally, i run 10 laps around the lake each day . 1 round is approximately 400 meters . So , i tried intervals today . Ran like i was chased by butterflies for 30 seconds , followed by a 1 minute walk . So moodless today , i only ran 12 minutes .

I get very annoyed when ppl bang their doors when they move in and out . Its really really irritating. Especially when you are just a few seconds away from falling into that deep sleep that you really need . All of a sudden , BANG . You wake up . And have to try sleeping all over again . DANG ! Why is it so hard to turn the door knob ? Is there something wrong with your wrist ? GEEEZ . Even while i'm typing this , the door goes Booom BOom POw . Sheesh . STOP BANGING THE DOOOR !

And then . Air con right .. got that remote control to adjust the coldness one . Why need to on until the air con so cold and don't want to adjust the temperature huh ? Instead of adjusting the temperature . Go wear scarve pulak . celaka betul . On so cold need to pay more . if the electric bill and water bill wanna split equally . I'm moving out .

I was bored . Now i'm pissed off =.=

Short stories : 3

2009-09-04T04:27:00.003+08:00

Do you know what happened today ?

I met a guy . A very sweet guy . So this is what happened .

I was down at the Emo Bookstore ( a very emo bookstore indeed ) deciding whether to get a book on Haematology . Being undecisive like usual , a 5 minute trip to the bookstore turned to be a 45 minute trip there .

While in the bookstore , there was this senior paying for his selection of books . Upon hearing my queries to the bookstore keeper , he spontaneously gave me advices on whether to buy the book or not .

That's how the conversation started . From Haematology books , it continued on to Summatives exam , to Semester 5 exam , to tips on studying for End of Semester 3 examination , to where from , to names , to people we knew in common , to general topics like food and eventually to Facebook and E-mails .

Apparently , he's in Semester 6 now and will be heading to Glasgow today , 4/9/09 - twinning programme . Plus , he's from Ampang . He was very willing to share tips and his experiences in studying in IMU . Me and Siew Lyn ( PBL mate ) kind of exhausted him with questions . But he was kind enough to answer them all .

After talking at the bookstore for about 45 minutes , we decided that it was time to leave . And he offered to walk me back ( minor info : i'm staying in the condominium right opposite IMU which is just a 5 minute walk from uni ) . He walked me way till the condominium lif which i think was a very sweet thing to do .

Guys nowadays are RARELY that " gentleman" . Well , at least for me . Not many guys like this cross my path . It can be nothing to you , but to me , this is jaw dropping . Forgive the Suagu-ness of this small town girl .

I put my blog address on FB . Hope that mr.gentleman won't discover it . Very embarassing lo if he read this post .

But then , if he somehow discovers this place .. ermmm ... Mr.Senior , you are very gentleman .

Eh , single guys out there, all must learn from him ( kao lui technic ) . =D

RBCs and WBCs , ABC and 123

2009-09-01T19:01:00.001+08:00

New system - Haematology which is the study of blood cells and blood disorders - has just commenced .

New system = new plans .

no.1 - no more procrastinating !!!! no more !!!! Studying last minute is never never a good thing . And procrastinating 2 weeks of lectures are never a wise thing to do . And also going out so often despite the procrastination of the mountainous pile of lecture notes is just very good for your mental health if u want to admit yourself into Tanjung Rambutan .

no.2 - sleep and eat properly . My sleeping and eating habits for the last 9 weeks was so screwed and messed up . The most screwed up time i woke up was 1 am to start my day . And whenever i wake up . I need caffeine in my blood . And with my cup of coffee i need my beloved Heong Piah . And that's my breakfast at 1 am .

no.3 - study before lectures . It really helps a lot to study before the lectures when your lecturer is a foreigner who gives his lectures in English but sound like Tamil and as if he was rushing to the toilet to relief his bladder . Besides , its always good to know your facts well before going to the Skills Center session ( its a 2 hour session of learning clinical skills ) or get mocked and made fun by your Skill Center lecturer ( will post something on this some day ) .

Right . That's 3 new plans i have in mind . Need to rush off to meet my mentor for his signature for my electives .

I won't deny it

2009-09-01T04:08:00.003+08:00

Its during the nights , i think of someone .

They say that break ups have a few essential stages .

First - Denial . Second - Anger . Third - Depression . Fourth - Acceptance . Fifth - Adaptation.

I believe i've moved into the fifth stage . I no longer need that someone's company . I no longer need that someone's ears . I no longer need that someone's shoulders . I no longer feel the urge to report every tiny detail to that someone .

That someone no longer exist in my call out list . That someone no longer exist in my message outbox . That someone no longer has that special place .

I would define that as well adapted .

But i won't deny that , that someone still lingers in my mind when I'm the only one awake .

I won't deny that , I've been a stalker on Facebook .

I won't deny that , I've wondered if there was a second chance .

I won't deny that I went through Stage 2 and Stage 3 .

I won't deny that that someone was once VERY special to me .

All have changed . Its easier nowadays . I've met new faces and achieved much more .

That someone should be having zero problems , i know . Like usual , that someone's 24 hour are fully occupied .

But , I really wonder ...

Who lingers in his mind nowadays ? =]

Happy 52nd Birthday Malaysia .

At last ! Transformation Complete !

2009-08-31T18:53:00.008+08:00

I'm deeply in love with my new blog skin . Have been meddling with htmls and codes all morning . It all paid off .

My favourite blue . Check .

Calibri font . Check .

Black background . Check .

Quote . Check.

Just the way i want it . Compared to the last one , i think its more me . The last one was so teenage girl . Eeww.

The process was definitely not easy for a html noob like me . Have to thank my sister for helping me so much .

I don't know whether it would turn out the same if viewed from other computers or whether the other computers are able to load the font that i chose for my headings . But , what the heck , I'm happy as long as i can view it , and enjoy viewing it from my computer .

Haven't had much time to blog . But with the new skin in place , hrm ... i think i shall blog more often .

Me heart Me new blog skin . Yippee !

Tell me if the white font strains your eyes . Coz i think it strains mine . Dunno whether to change it .

* update : changed the font to Dotum and colour to light grey. I think it's softer on the eyes .

new skin

2009-08-31T14:34:00.003+08:00

testing testing 1 , 2 , 3
bla bla bla and bla on

Exam season

2009-08-18T15:02:00.003+08:00

I can't wait for exams to be over .

Planned and made reservations for supper buffet at Jogoya already .

Some how , i can't feel the stress for exams this time . I know i know nuts about the heart . And know bananas about the lungs .

Hopefully it'll be enough to pass my exam .

Nightmare

2009-08-15T06:09:00.003+08:00

Rings were involved .

2 rings . A proposal . We were close together .

It was a dream . A nightmare . Coz it made me wake up emo .

short stories : 2

2009-08-12T04:11:00.003+08:00

I met an engineer in the the lift the other day when i was on my way up to my unit . Our conversation started only when he was about to reach his level , which was the 18th floor .

He initiated the conversation by asking me if I was a medical student from IMU , and which year i was in . Seeing that he was friendly and did not show any signs of pervertness , i reciprocated his questions .

After a while , he was talking to me about how he completed engineering school faster than others . He told me that he finished his course faster because when others were happily enjoying their holidays , he and a bunch of his friends were ahead others , studying to pass the next semester of studies under a professor who tutored them .

He suggested I do the same . Upon those words , I was thunderstrucked . @#$%^& How was that possible for my case ?! Holidays are the only time the word "study" isn't in my list of vocabulary . NO NO NO .

By the time we finished our conversation on academics , he was already on his floor and my index finger was on the " open" button of the lift for 5 minutes . But after that , we continued talking about his life , where he stayed and bla bla ... He even told me how he got cheated by a student who did not pay the rent .

Thankfully , our conversation did not last up to an hour . Otherwise , my index finger would have lost its function and remained bend for the rest of my life .

I found a new friend =]

Rojak

2009-07-04T05:38:00.004+08:00

The new semester has just commenced . Not used to it at all . Notes have started piling . And I don't even care a single bit . Living with no internet ,for already a week now, has driven me into day dream mode . Dwindled away a week of my precious time fikir yang bukan - bukan .

Why am i so slow . Why is my IQ so low . Why don't I remember longer . Why don't i think faster . Why don't i absorb like a sponge . Why do i feel so stupid .

I've lost the drive . Drivey drive , can you please come back ? I've lost part of me . Something's missing . I used to be able to talk . I used to be able to just walk up to anyone and crap . I used to be able to crap something funny , not always , but at least there are times when i do . Now , i am downright boring .

Can someone give me a huge blow . Wake me up .

New Member

2009-06-25T20:54:00.004+08:00

Presenting to you the newest member of our family .

We call her Fei PO ! at least for now ... can't think of a better name for her .

She's a mix breed . Shih Tzu + Terrier

She's 2 months old . And behaves like an angel . Doesn't bark . Doesn't bite . And wobbles with her fat belly .

KAWAIIIII !

Ma de

2009-06-21T20:47:00.003+08:00

i'm terribly very extremely pissed off now .

F... F... F... F... doot ... doot ... doot ... doot .

I hate it I hate it I hate it I freaking hate it

Why the doot ... why the doot doot doot doot !!!!

PS: I'm bored . I'm furious . I've lost it . I need a big fat slap . A slap that can slap away everything . Memories especially .

F ! F ! F ! F!

Hancur

2009-06-17T04:43:00.004+08:00

Shocked by the sudden twist .

I was in pieces . Tiny pieces . Shattered . Broken . Betul betul hancur .

Thank God I'm an elephant that produce Elephant Super glue ( insiders joke ) . I'm all glued up .

Though the scars remain .

I'm stronger and firmer than before .

Ready for tomorrow .

A day of crap

2009-05-21T23:26:00.006+08:00

1st crap :

I woke up in the morning with food poisoning . My stomach hurt like hell and i was constantly going in and out the toilet .

Must be the fish i ate yesterday for lunch and dinner . CRAP

2nd crap :

I had to travel to Putrajaya for the Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman interview . Since it was the first time for me to travel by KLIA transit , the station was new to me and I didn't know what their signs meant . I waited for the train to stop on the left side of the platform . 10 minutes passed . No train yet . 20 minutes passed . No train on the left side of the platform yet . 30 minutes . Still none . Little did i know , I should board the train that stopped on the RIGHT side of the platform . In those 30 minutes , I actually missed 3 trains .

Wasted my time when i could have reached Putrajaya in just 15 minutes . CRAP .

3rd crap :

Upon arrival , they gave us a questionaire to be done . There were 3 sections .

The first section consist of 7 yes and no questions . ( Example : Your friend helped you re-write your essay . Improving your essay by leaps and bounds . She could explain what you could not . This helped you attain a higher grade for your essay . Is this considered as academic dishonesty ? )

The 2nd section was 2 essay questions . One in English . One in Bahasa Malaysia . The question asked to pick one of the questions in part 1 and give reasons to your answer .

The 3rd section consists of 2-choice question . We are to circle the statement which is closer to our principles .

The guy who handed me the questionaire did not tell me i had a time limit . I took my own sweet time at part 2 , thinking of as many reasons as i could . Suddenly , he came up to me . Time's up . DANG . I had not even done the question 2 of Part 2 , and also part 3 of the paper .
And so ... I rushed through to finish the paper in 5 minutes without checking at all ...
After that , I had to wait for my turn to be interviewed .

My turn came . I entered the room to see 2 friendly looking fellow with batik attire . I took a seat . And the interview started .

One of the interviewer looked through my questionaire to find a question not answered on the first page . He asked me with a smile , " Why didn't i complete it , didn't I have enough time ? " So i decided to own up to my mistake saying something like ," I had enough time . I guess i was too nervous . " Then he said jokingly ," Doctors can't make mistakes . If they made mistakes , no one would dare to go to hospitals anymore . And I said ( kinda to defend myself ) , " Everyone make mistakes " . Thank God , they laughed . But after that , one of them said ,"You shouldn't say everyone make mistakes . Instead , you should say , everyone makes mistakes but me . "

GOSH , why did i miss out on that question , why did i say that statement ? CRAP

4th crap :

Both the interviewer and I we talking about Tampin . One of the interviewer once date a girl from Tampin . So we were joking and laughing . And the conversation came to a point where we talked about going to tampin . Something like that . And it kinda triggered interviewer no.2 to say , " Its not like we're going to see you again "

wth ... they did not even asked me my ambitions and my reasons for the need of the scholarship and I already know that I'm not getting the scholarship . CRAP

5th crap :

Instead of the normal scholarship questions , he asked me ABOUT the scholarship . So i " bom " what i know ... saying that its a new scholarship , just started this year , bom bom bom ... Manatau , yes , it is a new scholarship , but it started 4 years ago , kena bom back .

Then he started explaining to me that it is a prestigious scholarship and saying that its a exclusive scholarship ... And here's the question , what do you understand about that ...
DANG , i could hear the cricket in my head cricking away ... so i continued bom-ing and continued to be bom-ed back T_______T

I couldn't answer his question on why Bahasa Malaysia is important . I said it was our mother tongue language and bla bla bla ... Used the wrong term . Should have used National Language . Because of that , I kena bom . He corrected me by saying ," BM is not your mother tongue ... your mother tongue is what you speak at home with your paretns .. bla bla bla ..."

Aiyo .... I'm Malaysian . I know BM . Why can't he assume I speak BM with my parent ? CRAP

6th crap :

My friends and I went out for movies at night . Looked through the whole list of movies to watch and couldn't decide on anything. Finally , we picked Sell Out . There were no posters of the movie around the ticket booth . So we assumed it was a horror movie . BUT , no , it wasn't . It was a comedy instead . Its a Malaysian production .

Sell Out was the winner of : Young Cinema Award for Alternative Vision - Venice Film Festival , NETPAC Award -Taipei Golden Horse Film Festival and Best Film of the Venice Critics Week 2008

Watch the movie . You'll Laugh your ass out . Check out the trailer .

Conclusion , I spent RM10 on a movie full of laugh worthy CRAP

7th crap:

We did not take dinner before entering the cinema . By the time the movie ended , it was already 9 pm . Shops were closing . Just like the movies , we were undecisive of what we planned to eat . We then decided to eat at Sushi Zan Mai . We searched high and low for the restaurant . When we finally found it , there were no more sushi on the conveyance belt .
Then , we decided to just eat anything at the food floor in Midvalley . Again , all shops were cleaning up and closing their doors already .

The only restaurant available was ... KFC . Drank a hot milo there . CRAP .

8th crap , finale :

We waved a taxi to return to Vista Komanwealth . The taxi driver offered RM20 , which was more than double of the normal price . Lim Kian , my friend , managed to bargained till we got a ride at RM 15 . All the way home , the driver was sulking and sulking about the price we offered . And he purposely on the meter to show us the price . Plus , he was speeding all the way .

When we reached our place , the meter stopped at RM11.60 . Got cheated . CRAP .

I need to remember this

2009-05-20T19:10:00.007+08:00

Q1
Why do you need a scholarship ?

Ans
I need this scholarship because i want to lighten my parents burden . I need a scholarship because medical school is very expensive . Especially in IMU . One semester in phase 1 cost RM 28600 . And phase 2 RM 30000 . All together , a medical course in IMU would cost RM 380000 . All these exclude accommodation and food . Adding to that , medical books are very expensive . One text book cost more than RM 100 .
I have 3 more siblings who needs support in their education . One of my brother is also pursuing a medical career in Russia and the fees is also very costly .
I have a younger sister who needs support in her studies too .
Adding to that , my grandparents both maternal and paternal side , are ill . My grandfather is undergoing chemotherapy for colon cancer . His medication reaches a RM 1000 per month. My parents are working their best to support us in our studies and my grandparents . I love my parents for their sacrifice and hard work .To be able to complete my studies and be a successful person is one way to repay. And this scholarship is what i need to be able to complete my studies .

Q2 Why do you deserve this scholarship more than anyone else ?

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Because I really need it . I'm hardworking and determined . I'm doing well in my studies . I'm good at sports and I'm active in co-curricular activities . Adding to that , I would make a good representative of a Yayasan Tunku Abdul Rahman scholar . Above all that , because I'm honest and myself .

Q3 What makes you different from anyone else ?

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I have a intense drive inside of me . This drive gives me the ability to reach for the goals and dreams and even the unreachable . If you asked me a question , and i didn't know the answer to it , i would tell you i don't know . But i bet you that i know how to find the answers . And i will find the answers . That determination makes me stand out from the rest .

Q4 Why do you choose a certain field of study?
I choose medicine because i want to serve the community .And i feel that healing is the best way to serve the community . Its not about the money earned . Its not about the title in front of my name . Its about helping others by trying to relieve their pain . And bringing back that smile on their faces . Knowing that I made a difference in a person's life gives me satisfaction .

***Update : They didn't ask any of those questions today . Instead , they asked :

1) Do you know the meaning of selective
2) Do you know the meaning of exclusive
3) Do you know why Bahasa Malaysia is so important

zzz ... i can wave goodbye to the scholarship already .

Out of 200 + they selected 70 for interview . Out of 70 they'll pick 7 for a camp . Out of 7 , they'll pick 3 students for scholarship . Out of 3 of them , they'll pick 1 medical student .

Impossible ... plus i screwed all the questions they asked me

My head. My heart.

2009-05-20T09:32:00.009+08:00

10.30pm

Why do I feel that I’m not appreciated ? Why do I feel that he is just fitting me into his activities ? Why do I feel that I am not one of his activities ?

Why do I still feel that I’m the boyfriend and he is the girlfriend ? Why do I still feel that he isn’t putting much effort ? Why do I still feel that I’m alone in this relationship ?

I’m depressed .

Am I thinking too much ? Am I caring too much ? Am I not mature enough to handle such a relationship ?

Is it me ?

No , it can’t be . Can it ?

It happened again . Pre and post exam . No messages . No calls . If there were calls , it would be a miserable 7 minute call . Why do I feel that those 7 minutes are not sufficient ? Should it exceed 7 minutes ?

All of a sudden . I’m confused . Should it be this way ? or shouldn’t it ? Have I been influenced by Korean dramas ? But I’ve only watched one or two Korean series so far .

What if we were just normal friends ? What if I ended the relationship ? Something’s wrong .

NO NO NO . Stop thinking negatively . He is a fine person . Think of the good times . Remember that he drives from UM to spend time with you . He handmade roses for you on Valentine’s Day . He kinda paid for all the Chicken Essence you bought for exam purposes .

Its just so depressing whenever he chooses friends over me . And I am in no position to stop him from choosing his friends .

My head’s telling me , “ End it” . My heart’s telling me , “ don’t care so much” .

To tell you the truth , I really feel like ending it now . But how ? What will happen ? What if it turned out to be a mistake to let him go ? I don’t want to beg him to accept me .

What the heck … leave the situation be and hope for a miracle .

11.27pm

He asked me out :]

I think its the post exam nothing-to-do-ness that's messing with my head .

Kindergarten Outing 15/5/09

2009-05-15T13:23:00.007+08:00

It feels good taking photographs .

Its like capturing part of the world and preserving it in material form .

You won't know how your photos turn out .

Not until you develop them .

Or look at them through your computer .

It feels good taking candid photos .

Capturing every moment

a sneeze , a blink of an eye

It feels good seeing smiles .

Smiles from deep inside .

Sincere

True

If feels good being amongs innocent children .

They don't lie .

They don't act .

No paranoia .
No fear .

Love ~

2009-05-13T08:04:00.004+08:00

Exam's over !!!

I can finally relief the itch to blog that's been bugging me for the past one month .

First off , the COOLEST thing that occured during Semester 2 .

LEE HOM MUSIC MAN CONCERT

It was my first concert . So , i didn't know what to expect .

BUT , i would say ... it was A-W-E-S-O-M-E ... Awesome AWESOME-ness just oozes from LEE HOM .

fellow lee hom fans

I managed to get myself the 3rd class tickets which cost RM268 ... ouch yeah ... but it was worth the money ... Though , i regretted not getting the first class tickets . Even with the 3rd class tickets , it is still impossible to see Mr.Awesome 's flawless figure and face . Yes , figure and face .

need binoculars ... sigh

According to my theory tells me that , one will not be good looking if he has brains , in other words , a person would never be totally perfect , one would have a good quality followed by a not so good one .

blocked view

For example : a guy having nice facial features will not necessarily have a nice figure to match with . And a guy with a nice figure , would not have the looks to go with . I have been wondering . HOW ?? HOW is it possible that Lee Hom has talent , looks , figure and brains all together . I'm not exaggerating .

Mr.Awesome

Back to the concert details , Marvel Comics was the theme of the concert . He came out introducing that he was Music man , not iron man , not superman , not spiderman . And at one point , the back ground screen displayed all the Marvel comic characters . SO COOL . The Music man had his super damn cool Dragon shaped Bahamut electric guitar as his weapon .

Overall , the concert was better than what I expected . He sang his best hits . I particularly enjoyed his performance of " zu ling shen cu " . Music and lightings complemented the whole performance .

Heaven-like lightings

Most of the songs he sang were ballads . Got me covered in goosebumps ... Lee hom's vocal performance during the concert was better than what he had on his CD . By the end of the concert ... I totally fell deeply in love with him . It was one week to my major exam then ... And i suffered from post- concert effects . Couldn't help thinking of him while studying :) .

Hope I pass my exams ...

Larian Amal Seri Sinar 2009

2009-03-15T16:36:00.003+08:00

1 down 4 more to go .

Another finisher medal to add to my collection .

This time , this run 's special .

10km , finished in approximately 60 minutes .

And only 12 others ahead of me . YAY !

Me no likey this life

2009-03-12T22:24:00.004+08:00

No time . Seriously not enough time .

Lee Hom wanna come visit me somemore . Don't know how to make time for him .

Summative's one month + away ..

EOS is 2 months away ..

My brain cells are dying day by day ...

Saturated saturated saturated .

I love my flowers

2009-02-23T21:42:00.004+08:00

Its been quite hectic these days . Though its not because I am studying hard .
I've been partying like a rock star . Karaoke session , alcohol nights , steamboats , shopping , outings with housemates and not to forget Valentine's day .

I've been meaning to post an entry on each event that filled my day . But , by the end of the day . I would be too exhausted . Sleep comes first !

For now , I am running out of cash . Which means that i have to stay in from now on .

Here's what I got for Valentine's Day .

13 . With the scent of Hugo Boss Energize . Hand made with LOTS and LOTs of Love .

Why I don't envy those who got real roses?

Mine last forever . ^^

The joker and the sad queen

2009-02-14T10:28:00.005+08:00

Alcohol 's magical .

Had a night of alcohol yesterday with my friends at vista .

In the end , 3 were drunk . 3 sober . I was one of the sober ones ...

Alcohol changes you . It either brings out the sadness in you or the happiness in you .

Yesterday . It was both cases .

One which turned out to be the entertainment of the night .

Another , a sad and depressing story .

Things turned out way out of my expectations . I saw . I learnt . I experienced .

We hear stories about ppl getting drunk . But i've never seen such things happen before my eyes . I've never dealt with a drunkard . I've never knew what should be done .

I feel like i'd been in a well all this time .

He did

2009-02-11T08:55:00.004+08:00

She couldn't . She had the plan to stop all the misery .

But . She couldn't .

He cared . Though little , but he did .

She's thinking that she'll regret letting him off the hook so easily . But , all's well now .

The waves of the sea had calmed .

Another day will come .

Hope its not too soon .

What next ?

2009-02-09T11:07:00.004+08:00

finally , 3 calls plus a message .
That's a start .
But , No , she didn't pick up .

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It meant that he cared .She feels very much better than the few days before .
Should she stop her nonsense ?

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All of a sudden . She feels guilty . Guilty of what she's planning to do . Guilty that she told practically ... the whole world about it .

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But then again . She feels that its time for him to learn a lesson .
She acknowledges well that what she is doing is risky .
She knows that her actions may lead to severe consequences .
She understands that someone would definitely get hurt .

She must pick her actions wisely . Not to much . Not too little .

is it normal

2009-02-08T14:19:00.005+08:00

Should boyfriends (bfs) call girlfriends (gfs) ?
Should gfs call bfs ?
A friend of mine said that both should call each other ... Alright then .
Is it normal for d gf to call while the bf just waits for the gf's call ?
Is it normal for bfs to be so busy till they have no time , not even 1 minute to call or sms gfs ??
What if , the bf calls very rare , while the gf is the one who makes the calls ? is that normal ?
Is it normal for bfs to call only when the gf ask him to or when the gf miscalled him ??
Is it normal that bfs have time for his friends , shopping , jamming , having dinner and supper but can't find the time to type a text message or dial his gfs number ??
Is it normal for bfs to forget the gfs existence ??
Is it normal for gfs to say the 3 big words instead of the bf saying it ??

It is this much that a gf can resist . Her patience has reached its ultimate super infinity maximum .

So she goes on strike. She refrains from making calls and answering calls . In hope that he'll send a sms .

24 hours passed ... No calls at all ... The ordeal-like-wait continues .

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45 hours passed ... She's holding on . No calls made . No calls received . No calls rejected . No text messages received .

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46 hours passed ... She starts wondering .

She wonders where she ranked among her bfs priorities ? Was it his plan to stop calling too and call her only on Valentine's Day as a Valentine's Day surprise .
No ... Impossible ... Her thoughts told her that it had been this way long before these few days .

Her strike will tell her the next move .

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48 hours passed ... No calls yet .

She decides . This week ... shall be the deadline . Sunday , as the first day of a week .
If results failed to relieve her disappointment , she'd stop her suffering .

wth PBL

2009-02-05T15:35:00.003+08:00

I don't like PBL !!!

PBL stands for Problem Based Learning . There are 2 sessions of it per week .

In the first PBL . You get a trigger / a case / a scenario .

Then you discuss with your group of 10 students about the issues to be learnt from this trigger .

After the first discussion , everybody goes home and starts researching on the topics and learning issues . Those people who are super hardworking would go to the library and search the books instead .

Our PBL group members change each semester... If you are very "ong" , then you'll get all the introverts . If you are "sueeeeh '' , you become the introvert .

On thursdays( 2nd PBL session ) - DOOMS DAY , i would say , we throw out everything that we've researched.

This semester . Nilesh Kumar Mitra is my PBL facilitator . About Nilesh , he's the super anatomist , the one who knows A-Z about anatomy . He's a Sri Langkan . And ... in anatomy ... terms are in Latin . Put together Sri Lang Ka accent and Latin terms , you get a medic student with suicidal thoughts .

I am not going to say that he's a bad facilitator . In fact , he is a very good one . But , so much details , all which sound like alien language to us ... well not all , but , me of course .

There's this guy in PBL who is super super knowledgeable . He could talk in the same alien language as Nilesh . And i heard that he 's older than any of us students and he might even have a wife already . Im wondering if he'd graduated with a Microbiology degree . This super student answers all Nilesh's questions . The good thing about that is that he saves other PBL mates of the awkward silence when nobody has anything to say. Plus , we can actually learn a lot from him . The bad thing about this is that he dominates the PBL . which means that he might be the reason to why i fail my PBL in future .

Some how , i don't dare to speak up . I don't dare to cease the opportunity from others to speak my mind . I search a lot and read up but it always turn out irrelevant .

I think i have to change my method of preparing for PBL .

There are 10 PBL sessions in this semester .

1 down . 9 more to go .

As of today

2009-02-04T00:28:00.003+08:00

Lectures are at 10.30 am till 12.45 pm .

Medical Museum Sessions are either 8.00 am , which is too early , or 5.15 pm which is too late .

Clinical Skills Unit is the extra something on the timetable which wasn't in Semester 1 ( which was already perfect and need no addition in activities )

I'll have increasing pimples every Monday to Thursday . PBLs 1 & 2 are in the same week ( PBL 1 on Mondays , PBL 2 on Thursdays ) .

Bacteria , virus , fungi and parasites replace Sin Dee and Cheryl's roles as my buddies .

Day 1

2009-02-03T09:43:00.005+08:00

Today . Semester 2 in IMU starts .

10.30 am is the time . The Deans will be briefing us .

Its half an hour to 10.30 am .

A little happiness . So much reluctance .

God , can you make today a public holiday too ??

It doesn't have to be a memorable or one that honors a dead man .

Just make it a public holiday because of the man who invented beds , the Laptops and the internet .

I'm not ready .

Still ..

Will I get back my feng shui seat in the auditorium ?

How would i go about my day from now ?

Will I give Nilesh Kumar Mitra ( my PBL fascilitator ) a good impression ??

Will I get along with my PBL group mates ??

Will some ppl be more considerate ? And be more " xing mu " ?

Love Others

2009-01-17T22:34:00.004+08:00

I realized today that God is amazing .

He loves every single human being in this world . Unconditioned . Not selective .
No , he ain't picky .

His love for all of us is deep and sincere .
He doesn't cheat you into giving Him your lollipop by complimenting you from hair tip to toe nails .

He loves all and doesn't abandon any single one of us.
So , if you feel that your mama , papa , sister , brother , ah ma , ah gong and your pet dog named Fatfat are in love with Lee hom and that no one loves u , fear not , He still loves you .

He was willing to sacrifice . He could have sacrificed His Ipod , His Porche , His unlimited supply of Baskin Robin . Or even us ... But , nope !
Of all things , He sacrificed His Son to be crucified . To save us .
Sacrificial love .

And so , we should learn to love like God . Love others sincerely . Till they come to you , because they know you really care for them .

the not so malaysia part of Melaka

2009-01-15T10:16:00.006+08:00

Just came back from Melaka yesterday .

Due to the lack of internet , transport and Astro at my Grandpapa's house , I had to find other sources of entertainment so that my 5 days there weren't meaningless .

Like i said , no transport , the only means of transport were my capable pair of legs . So , they brought me everywhere from my grandpa's house to Mahkota Parade , Dataran Pahlawan , Stadhuys , along Sungai Melaka , A 'Famosa and Dataran Sungai Melaka .

Some really nice buildings along Sungai Melaka

It used to smell and had dead fish floating ... not anymore

Kincir Air Kesultanan Melaka

This place resembles a place in South Africa ... can't remember the name

See.. such a nice and modern-looking bus stop .

Malaysia's not so Malaysia these days .

Just a thought that came up

2009-01-09T16:42:00.008+08:00

About boy-girl relationships

Why do people get into relationships ? A very wise teacher of my had once said that people get into relationships because they want to get married .

To get married is to stay together forever . Going through pain and sufferings together . To take care of your spouse when they are sick or even till they are terminally ill or bedridden .

I'm no veteran in relationships . I'm no love guru . But , yeah , i've been in relationships . OK . Just 2 .

But , 2 very different ones . Both weren't " love at first sight " relationships .

The 1st was an on-and-off relationship with a guy i would refer to as 'X' . X and i studied in the same class , went to the same tuitions , and stayed in the same town . It was a short-distance relationship where i would be able to meet him whenever i want to . Because everywhere in Tampin is just 5 minutes away from home .

And the 2nd relationship is with a guy i would refer as "Z" . Z stays in Melaka while I stay in Tampin . And now , we study at different universities in Kuala Lumpur . We don't meet up each day . Because if compared , Tampin would be a 5 cent coin and KL would be a round man-hole cover . Getting to places in KL in just 5 minutes would be ... hallelujah , praise the Lord .

X is a simple guy who has no particular interest in seeking a glamorous life and aims instead for satisfaction . The kind of guy who is a joker but keeps himself humble and low-profiled . X is fun but not as fun to be with as Z . X is more of a listener than a talker . X is loyal and his efforts show clearly that he wants the relationship to last and maintained . Good-hearted , caring and showers me with the attention i need from him . He would always be there for me automatically . But , X is sometimes oversensitive and transforms into the green-eyed monster easily . Thus, this makes him a little bit obsessive sometimes and making me feel that i am under his control . When it comes to having fights and if he was in the wrong, he would appologize , knowing what the problem was and we would reconcile .

Z , on the other hand , is no simple guy seeking for mere satisfaction . Z is a dreamer who seeks a glamorous life . He is a joker and indulges in attention from the crowd . To say that he is low-profiled , that would be SO wrong . Z is fun , unpredictable and interesting to be with and to talk to . He doesn't get jealous easily . And i would have more freedom and need not worry that my actions would be a problem to him . He would be there for me , though , on my call . But , Z doesn't give me the attention that i need . Contrary to X , he is overinsensitive . Z is never the one to start a fight . Well , we had never really did fight before . When a problem arises , most of the time , Z would simply put the fault on me for thinking too much and treat the matter with disregard . Though , we still reconcile without alleviating the problem . Hence , problems accumulate and are left unsolved and refreshed when another problem arises .

Based on appearance , both have their strong points and weak points . But both , considerably , boleh tahan and boleh tengok and tengok lebih lama sikit pun tak bosan .

Z has what X lacks . And X has what Z lacks .

These are the 2 guys that i've let into my life .

I'm wondering if there's a guy who is a combination of both X and Z's strong points .

X + Z ---> Y

Let's refer to him as Y then .

Y would be fun , interesting , unpredictable , aims for a glamorous life , would be there for me automatically , caring , gives me the attention i need , medium-profilled , solves problems and appologizes when he is wrong instead of putting the fault on my overimaginative brain .

But , then again , usually ( i'm hoping that i'm wrong ) , guys like Y would lack something else that's very important .

Y would either come in the form of Shrek or Donkey . Or come in the form of a man with a head of white hair with saggy muscles and wrinkled skin . Or a guy who calculates 1 + 1 and gets 1 for an answer .

No perfect guy in this world i guess .

But , if you were in my Vincci shoes , who would you pick ? X or Z ?

Who would be the better man ( or lady ) for you ?

PS :
If you know who X and Z is , shhhhh ... =)
But still tell me what you think .

2009 Resolutions

2009-01-08T09:46:00.006+08:00

Happy New Year !!! I'm 8 days late ...

Its been quite some time since i blogged . For the pass one month , i had to prepare for my examination . The first exam of the semester and also the last exam of the semester . It was just a One Best Answer test of 50 questions which included our 14 weeks of lecture .

The good thing about IMU 's self-learning system is that it really gives you all the free time you need to self-learn and self-study . Somehow , lectures aren't that important , it just serves as a guide . With only 2 hour lectures per day , once a week PBLs and MMS , we practically have a lot of free time on our hands . You can do anything you want to do . Be it study or sing K with friends or sleep the whole day .

The bad thing is that they have so few test and exams . ( maybe that's a good thing also ) No test is equivalent to having no idea how the major exams would turn out . And that leads knowing nuts about techniques to answer questions and what to focus on when studying for exams.

Enough of that , I'm happy in IMU anyway . Though , it is less fun than form 6 life .

I miss those days in form 6 . The teachers were great , the friends were awesome . We were like one big family . All willing to share . All willing to go through hardship together . Teachers were dedicated like hell . Missing their lessons made you guilty . Uni-life . * Sob * . Totally different .

New year resolutions this year

Cut down on sugary food . ( We don't need that much sugar in our bodies anyway )
Stop squeezing pimples . ( Have blemishes all over my face * sigh * )
Learn some make-up skills . ( Especially how to apply foundation to cover up those blemishes )
Chew on Japanese Soybean in stressful situations ( instead of biscuits )
Study less . ( My bro says i am studying too much . I think its true . Need to just aim for pass next time )
Learn to use dad's big chunky 10 megapixel camera .
Improve photographing skills . ( I should take lessons from my cousin , Jason . )
Make more friends at IMU ( instead of hanging out with the same friends all day )
Go back to Melaka to spend time with grandpa at least once a month .
Think before i talk .
Dress more feminine . ( Alex said i dress like a guy . Hate to say this . I think he's right . )
Come home to tampin at least twice a month .
Follow the one year bible reading plan .
Participate in Infinity Milers activities . ( Infinity Milers is a very active/fun running and mountain climbing club in IMU )
Take part in at least 5 marathons this year . ( Trying to make a collection of marathon certificates and medals )
Get a Facebook account . ( I'm outdated , i know )
Catch up with Tampin and Melaka friends .
Reply forward messages
Focus on myself more and Stop being obsessed over TWS . ( My mum said i'm " tepuk-ing sebelah tangan " . )
Get a big poster of Lee Hom . ( omgwthbbq , so handsome . *drool* )
Go back to Rumah Hope to spend time with the kids there .
Improve new-year-resolution actualizing skills . Accomplish at least 50 % of it .

Ladies' day out

2008-12-11T23:35:00.006+08:00

Met up with Bao Ling in Time Square on the 30th of November .

We went for Star Buck's coffee . Had a coupon from The Sun newspaper which offered a free pomegranate peach ice blended with the purchase of a Dark Cherry Mocha of any size .

The Dark Cherry Mocha tasted great like all coffee at Star Bucks . But , not the pomegranate peach ice blended . Well , it was f.o.c .

My advice , don't splurge on anything besides their coffee at Star Bucks . It would be a total waste of money . I'm serious . The ice blended pomegranate peach i had tasted just like syrup in ice . Its a drink you can D.I.Y at home .

Anyway , we got our not-really-sore feet rubbed . It was really good . Especially the part where my vertebras made noises when the masseuse twisted my back .

Ever had your foot rubbed professionally before ??

Magical ?

Encourages the release of the body's happy chemicals . It does .

Don't we look happy ?

Christmas decorations were up . I think the " creative bone " in Time Square's staff is missing . Not really very spectacular decorations compared to Midvalley or the other shopping malls .

This was on the 30th . Met up with Bao Ling again at Midvalley last weekend .

And lucky me , Seok Ling ( from Upper 6 Sc Alfa ) , Swee Chern and ... Koh Tung ( Swee Chern's boy boy ) were in the building too :) Had dinner with them at Kim Gary .

Went home a happy girl that day :)

PS :
SC and KT are so close too each other . Wished I had what they have now :'(

Cooking

2008-12-06T19:42:00.005+08:00

I don't like cooking .

I don't like the process of making a meal to eat .

I prefer it ready , laid on the table , set to be eaten .

I don't like the cleaning part too .

I prefer not to get my hands wet , oily and soaked in detergent .

You can say that I am lazy , spoilt ... whatever you can come up with .

But , why go into so much trouble to fill your tummy right ?

Normally , I would cater food . That means , sit back , wait , and have the food sent straight to my door . And it cost RM3.50 . Plus , its really yummy .

Sadly , sometimes , the caterer would take a break . And that would mean I have to cook .

Here's what I've tried so far .

Egg with canned tuna

Boiled broccoli with oyster sauce

Hong Kong szechuan flavoured noodles with sausages

Took me and my housemate an hour plus to prepare , cook , eat and wash up .

Could have finish 2 episodes of Ugly Betty with that time .

Nonetheless , it was yummy . And we were satisfied .

And from now . I'll refer S as Sin Dee . Coz i've grown very close to her . Turns out , she's not to "sticky" after all. These days , i am the sticky one . She's Very chatty . Some times , we can talk and crap for more than 2 hours .

Sindee and Me , ready for food

PS :
Does she look like Qing Liang ?? Coz those who had seen her says she does .

What's their problem !

2008-11-24T05:56:00.007+08:00

Internet service was barred for a few days last week . " M " and their sucky service . They got S's email address wrong . Consequently , S didn't receive any internet bill for the last 2 months and we got barred . Not S's fault . Stupid staff working for M .

E.g

M-is-useless@yahoo.com.sg & M-is-useless@yahoo.com makes a difference . S 's email-address ended with "sg" .

And some smart-ass at M overlooked it .

After paying , the lady whom we paid to said that we were able to have our internet service back in 2 hours . Well , it took them 24 hours instead .

@#$%^&*?*&^%$#@@#$%+&*^%$#@@#$%^&*&^%$#@

What's wrong with them !

Bad habit

2008-11-19T20:26:00.006+08:00

I have a seriously super bad habit . Very very bad , unhygienic one .

And it comes on every time i start studying .

The habit causes me to lose concentration in my studies .

I try to stop . Normally , i don't do it on purpose . Example : i start studying , the habit starts ( subconsciously ) , after a while , then only do i realize the habit is on again .

Its really disturbing ! I cannot multi-task .

Studying + Bad habit = multitasking --> cannot concentrate 100 % --> get frustrated because by the end of the day , only 50 % enters my brain .

its been years since i had this habit . i think it started probably when i was still in primary school . And even now , i still have it .

I've tried many ways to stop repeating it . And ... really cannot le .

I'm thinking of hypnosis now .

Get somebody to hypnotize me .

Anybody knows a thing or two about hypnotizing ?? or have contacts of a pro-hypnotizer ( don't wanna wake up from the trance thinking that i'm Super girl ) ??

Life. so boring .

2008-11-16T14:11:00.002+08:00

Life here's starting to get boring .

I've quit Hip Hop dance class which i joined one month ago . Found it too stressful . Also i realize my body moves ... in a very embarassing manner ... and looks ... very awkward . Plus , everybody is so syncronized in their dance . Except me . It really amplifies my mistakes ... I don't even dare to look at the dance instructor . Well , Im happy that the end of it . Maybe i'll just have some one teach me all the cool easy dance moves .

Exam's in 6 weeks time , everyone should have started revising and preparing for exams . Well , i've started too . I realize that people here are so competitive . People aim to get "As" . I , on the other hand , just plan to , hopefully , sail through these 5 years . Every minute and second counts . They would always be rushing off ... I'm guessing ... must be rushing off to their studies ... I'm thinking whether they would compare results . If they do , if they asked me , i 've came up with a few ways to answer them . Lets say , if i passed my exam , i don't think im going to tell anyone what i got , not even my condomate , i'll just say that they'll see me next semester . or something like that .

Hai ... feeling the pressure . S is always studying . Always borrowing books from the library . Always doing exercises . Always getting me to borrow books so she can use those books too .

i guess i got to work super hard from now . 6 weeks to go . Haven't been studying much lately . taking it really easy . Now , im a bit lost . Got to get all the help from seniors to prepare for this 31st of DECEMBER exam .

I should learn to love studying . HOW aa ?? Possible meh ??

Having internet = Not having Internet

2008-11-01T14:03:00.006+08:00

Argghhh ! i cannot stand the sucky internet here .

Want to upload photos and enjoy blogging about something very special to me also cannot !!!

Not only that !

Load one page of KL map also need to load for like ... 30 minutes and its not even complete yet !

That's not all !!!

Everytime , disconnect then disconnect and disconnect some more .

I'm not finished !

It always gives me this " Page load error " . I can memorize whatever that's stated on the page already .

The girl who sold it to S said its because of the rain .

Ya , right ! Rain her head , neck , body and foot la ! Its very rainy lately meh ??!!

So damn frustrating ! No wonder i see so much hair around my computer table .

PS:
By the way , its M broadband .

If I were a boy

2008-10-29T12:01:00.004+08:00

If i were a boy ,

I'd wake her in the morning ,
Declare my love ,
Cause i know she'd like that .

If I were a boy ,

I'd text her ,
whenever I can ,
and have her text me back ,
Cause I'd know that she'll feel lonely sometimes .

If I were a boy ,

I'd listen to her ,
with full attention ,
hear her sorrows and blues ,
Cause I'd know that she needs me .

If I were a boy ,

I'd hug her close ,
ask her what's wrong ,
when her tears roll ,
Cause i'd know that she needs me , to stop her tears .

If I were a boy ,

I'd be first to say :" I love you " ,
and have her say she loves me too ,
before she says it instead ,
Cause i'd know that she preferred to hear it from me and not say it herself.

If I were a boy ,

I'd stand by her side ,
Not take the other ,
Even if she's wrong ,
Cause i'd know that she'd want my support , just for that moment .

If I were a boy ,

I'd not take her for granted ,
I'd cherish the time I have ,
Treat each day as the last ,
Cause I'd know that I might lose her , any moment .

PS:
Listened to Beyonce's If I were a boy , made me so Emo .

Run baby run

2008-10-25T03:23:00.009+08:00

The last two weekends were one whole Disney land rollercoaster ride.

Conquered the Klang Pacers 12 km run and Mizuno wave run .

Klang Pacers run wasn't as good and challenging as the Mizuno wave run. It didn't have much scenery amd the whole route was really dusty .

Mizuno wave run involved running uphills and downhills . Running uphill isn't fun at all. It can be really demoralizing , after running a few meters of uphills , the slope goes on upwards. But then again , the higher and steeper the slope is , the more downhills there are .

The best thing was , I got souvenirs !

Lucky number D042

I really love the Mizuno vest . Super light !

Other free souvenirs i got .

Counter pain . Didn't use it at all .

Other stuff that i didn't use .

Some souvenirs i used :)

My priceless valuables : the medals . ( Not every runner have these babies )

Alexis and Mahjong Night

2008-10-11T12:53:00.008+08:00

KL is the super power house of all kinds of entertainment you can find . You can practically relish in any kind of entertainment that pops up in your head .

It can be both fun and frustrating . The fun part is when the party is on . The frustrating part is the hang overs and procrastination of studies/homeworks .

I am beginning to like it here .

Our Professor Hla Yee Yee taught us how we should schedule our weekly activities . She mentioned that we should leave Friday night out from any textbooks , homework , pens , paper and pencil .

So that's what me and 3 other musketeers did ( Pik Yin , Olive and Daniel ) .

Alexis Bistro Live Performance

We went to Alexis in Ampang for a live performance by Yoshiro Okazaki with the Lewis Pragasam Band .

While the musicians played their jazz music , we sipped coffee and nibbled on a slice of cake .

Yoshiro Okazaki is one of the busiest musician in Japan . His trumpeting skills are really classic . Whereas , Lewis Pragasam band members had the musical endowment everybody wished they had . Together , they worked up a musical havoc that totally left audiences awestruck .

I first stepped into Alexis with a " I'm here for the food and chit-chats with friends " attitude . When the live performance commenced ; when the lights dimmed ; when jazz music started to fill the air ; then only did i realize ... oh how wrong I was .

The live performance started around 10.30pm and ended around 1.00am . After that , everybody head back to my place for Mahjong Night !

Mahjong at Vista B

I started off knowing nuts about Mahjong . With the help of Olive and Pik Yin , the grand Mahjong masters ,and Daniel , the pro newbie , I managed to hon my Mahjong playing skills .

We started playing at 2 am .

I think we played a total of 5 rounds ... In those five rounds ... I was always the one second to last or the one who " bankrupted " first . Through the whole 6 hours of Mahjong , I only won 2 or 3 times . While my friends were constantly winning making me wonder if i was jinxed ( I had a very very swueeeeh day on Thursday ) .

All in all , I had fun . The amount of untouched snack we bought tells me that this is the first of all Mahjong nights .

There's more to come .

Zinger burger ROCKS!

2008-10-08T21:18:00.007+08:00

Its not the healthiest burger , its not the cheapest burger nor the most expensive one , it does not have much magnetism as Carl's Junior burgers or Semabok burgers .

At RM5.60 , I think its worth it lo . Even though people say that its shrinking day by day .

Its super -- very -- seriously -- really -- reallyreally -- reallyreallyreally yummy .

If you haven't taken a bite out of it , well , its worth starving yourself for a day to save up RM5.60 .

yummy yummy crunchy zinger

If you had tried it , and you don't like it . Come to me . I'll tell you all the good things about KFC Zinger Burger .

I won't rest until you say you like it !

PS:
Chua Shi Rui if bro didn't buy the pendrive , I would have bought you a Zinger burger . More worth it !
Happy 14th birthday !
Happy Birthday !

Study time is here

2008-10-05T22:50:00.002+08:00

A senior who was so stressed out in his studies that he started smoking ?

I've heard many stories . Read many tales . This is one tale that stunned me .

I haven't been studying much . In fact , I have been enjoying my free time at IMU .

I think its time to get more serious with my studies now .

2 more months . The count down starts .

Russia , so far

2008-10-03T08:37:00.011+08:00

My younger bro has gone to Russia . And we miss him to bits .

Mummy misses her most obedient child .

Zhen making mooncakes with my mum

Daddy misses his assistant in the kitchen . ( My dad cooks , seriously-i'm not joking-no need to doubt- why are you still doubting , delicious food )

Elder bro misses his DOTA partner . ( Wanted me to learn how to DOTA so that can play together-gether with him )

Younger sis misses stupid things the dynamic duo does in Carrefour .

Tortoi , the family tortoise , misses the swimming trips at the condominium pool my younger brother used to go to . ( Tortoi's turning aggresive , it tries to get out from its home a lot nowadays )

It doesn't look aggresive now . Its faking it .

As for me , I miss exchanging problems and stories with him . ( I've turned evil with all the negative energy inside me ) .

Sob Sob ... Russia's so far .

Curse you stupid cravings!

2008-09-30T12:36:00.010+08:00

I eat a lot . I really really do eat really really a lot .

I am addicted to crunchy food . Addicted as in i start munching , continue munching , and I don't stop until there is nothing left for me to munch .

Fat has comfortably found a place to stay on my belly , and other parts of my body . ( I'm not going to say where . Coz you'll start observing . Please don't .)

I need to evict these fat from where they are living now.I plan to exercise . Run . Burn those evil fat cells . And in order to push me and force myself to exercise .

I participated in 2 upcoming runs . Both in October .

The first run is the New Balance Klang Pacers 12 km run which is held on the 12th of October .

The second is The Mizuno Wave run on the 19th of October .

Each , 1 week away from another . I had to pay a total of RM 65 . ( ya, OUCH ! ) But , I want the vest !! The goodies !!

And ... to get rid of my unwanted fat .

I've started my so-called training which involves running constantly for at least 10 rounds of a ring which is approximately 300 meters , and increasing 1 round day by day . Its really a good work out . Pumps your heart . Makes you sweat like you are in hell.

I thought i would be burning a lot of fat just running like that .

To my dismay , I gain even more . Instead of eating less , i realize , i eat more .

My mind kinda tells me : " Aiya , its ok la . eat whatever you like now , after all , you'll be running later . "

I have lots of mooncakes at home . Keropok . Biscuits . Mister potato . And my mum's desserts .

I can't stand the sight of food left unfinished .

For example : If the tub of Mister potato is half way to being empty , I would feel the need to finish all of it till its empty . And if there is 1/2 of a mooncake left in the fridge . I would stuff it into my mouth so that its totally out of sight .

Is this some kind of eating disorder ?

I think , if there was a total opposite eating disorder of anorexia ... this would be it .

I am different

2008-09-23T14:00:00.006+08:00

We humans are as different as " heads" and " tails" of a coin .

I think of myself as a person , firm on my own believes .

I don't change to impress .

I don't sweet talk to have someone like me .

I don't care what anybody thinks of me for what i said , for what i did , for what I thought .

My mind works according to my believes and my pleasure .

No matter how dull what I do , might sound .

I enjoy what I do . Every part of it .

I have no regards to others if i believe what I do is right .

I am cold blooded .

Try to change me . You will fail .

I heart you

2008-09-21T22:28:00.005+08:00

You are the reason to my happiness .

You are the reason to my smiles .

You are the reason to my sleepless nights .

I love you very much .

I feel like holding you in my arms . And squeeze you tight till you can't breath .

I feel like giving you kisses . Although not on the lips , but all over you .

I want to thank you .

Sin Dee .

I heart you .

For providing me the internet :)

PS:
FYI , I finally have internet at B-23-3.
Happy~happy~joy ~joy~ ! Happy ~ Happy ~ Joy ~ !

Is it me ?

2008-09-20T22:58:00.002+08:00

I feel like I'm single .

I don't feel Mr.Hony's love , again .

Is it me ?

Wrinkles and White Hair

2008-09-19T22:09:00.004+08:00

Ma ,

When I was 7 . You scolded me . And i rebelled , saying that you were worser than Cinderella's stepmother . Which then earned me a lecture from Papa .

When I was 9 . Chinese homework were bitter pills to me . You and Papa found out from Miss Yang ( my primary school Chinese teacher ) that I've been accumulating all my Chinese homework for months . Not only that , you found out that I've been lying , a lot , to my teachers . The worst thing was , you also found out that I tried to forge Papa's signature for my Chinese Dictation in which I scored 0 % .

For all that , you caned me with the feather-duster and Papa hit me with his own hands .

When I was 17 , you found out about the relationship I had with a boy at school . For days , I was scolded . For months , I was brain-washed . I cried because I was forced to break up . I cried because of all the things you and Papa were saying to me .

You always commented on some of my clothes . Its always either too tight or too bare . After each comment , a scary stare followed .

You and Papa scolded me , nagged at me , and even caned me ( just a few times ) .

It was never nice to get scolded , nagged or caned . I never did enjoy those moments .

But , I don't hate you and Papa .

I see wrinkles on your faces .
I see strands of white hair over your heads .
There is a tale behind each strand of white hair and each wrinkle on your faces .

Those wrinkles and white hair signify everything .

All those sessions of rebuking , nagging and canning were done for good reasons .

You and Papa have lived in this harsh world for more than half a century now . No doubt , you and Papa have the most experiences than any of us in the family . Both of you know best of what is good and what is not .

Now that I am older .

I realize why Papa lectured me when I made that cruel remark . I realize why you and Papa caned me when I was lazy , lied and tried to forge a signature . I realize what you said about having a relationship and committing to a relationship at such a tender age were true . I understand why you didn't want me in those body hugging and skimpy clothes now .

If asked , what changes I want in my parents , I would say , " They are perfect the way they are . "

Again and again .

I love you Ma . I love you Pa .

Symbiosis

2008-09-13T00:59:00.007+08:00

Symbiosis or mutualism is the relation between 2 species of organisms that are interdependent ; each gains benefits from the other .

This is the case for me and S .

First off , my predictions of how S would turn out to be were 80% wrong . S proved to be friendly , talkative , filled with laughter and ... a bit blur .

I managed to break the ice on the day she moved in . I perceived from her speech that she did not feel comfortable speaking English . When I started chatting with her in Chinese , that was when the ice berg cracked .

S is OK after all . She doesn't mess up the condominium . And doesn't bother or disturb me when I'm asleep or anything .

But , after staying under the same roof for a week , I realize ... S is sticking to me . Stick as in kind of like glued to me .

I see her in the mornings when I walk to class . She sits beside me in class . She leaves the class with me . She meets my friends with me . She follows me out for lunch . She takes lunch with me .She goes home together with me . She watches movies with me in the afternoons . She goes jogging with me . She takes dinner with me . Basically , she's 95 % of the time with me . The other 5 % is when we are with our PBL groups and sleeping .

Thank God , she doesn't bath with me .

This is what happened everyday for the pass 1 week.

After one whole week of S , I'm a bit sick and tired of talking to her . I wonder why she doesn't meet up and mingle around with her orientation group mates . What about other friends ?? I am her only friend ??

However , S coming to stay here isn't all that bad and ugly to me . In some way , I need her . I need her company when walking to class . I need her company when I come face to face with trouble in B-23-3 . I need her to talk to me when I need someone to talk to . I need a place other than my room to go to when I am bored and stressed out .

Most importantly , I really really need internet . In which , she has .

I THINK , in some way , she needs me too . Somehow , at times , I feel that I need to help her out at making new friends , taking initiative in befriending or talking to others and learning to be independent ( which is equally important to what I need from her ! )

I need her . She needs me .

I benefit from her . She benefits from me .

Symbiosis .

PS:

Ee Teen ! Happy Birthday ! Have a blessed birthday . Hope you like the donuts and small little perfume :)

Lonely no more

2008-09-06T16:37:00.007+08:00

I should be rejoicing . I should be showing gratitude . I should be overjoyed . But , somehow . I am not feeling anything close to happy about it .

I have been staying alone in B-23-3 for 2 weeks now . Despite how solitary it seems , I enjoyed and relished in the 2 weeks of loneliness . I had great fun having my orientation group buddies over for discussion , watching Grey's Anatomy and playing dress up in my room. I had fun turning the music volume till it was full blast . I had fun having the peacefulness of the night and beautiful lights of KL accompany me .

However , I won't be able to enjoy all that anymore .

A girl , S , will be moving into the condominium this coming Sunday . Like I said , I should be happy that I won't be alone in the condo anymore . But , seriously , I am not really happy .

I don't know much about her . Just know that she's from Shah Alam and in the same batch as me in IMU . She got my number from a friend of her's that i know . OK . That's fine with me .

On thursday , she came with her dad to view the place . I thought it would be best to be friendly and try to get to know a bit more about who she is . So , I marched up to her with the biggest smile on my face saying , " Hi , I am Shi Yi . "

So I made my move . Hoping that she would do the same . I was there , waiting , ...

Come on , come on , say something ...

Instead , nothing came out of her mouth . Okay , wait , she smiled . But , well , I expected an intro or a hand shake from her , after all we'll be condo-mates soon .

Its too early for me to judge what kind of person she is . A lot of "What if-s" have been popping up into my head .

My major worry is that she'll only mess and not clean . My skills of cleaning has earned me compliments from the owner's mother . I sure hope that my hard work of keeping it spic and span won't go into the the drain just because of S .

And I really , really , REALLY hate to clear up mess that isn't mine .

What if she's bitchy ? What if she's a slob like the previous pharmacy girl who stayed there ?
What if I wanted to use the bathroom and she wanted to use it too ? What if she turned out to be noiser than me ?

I hope she's not what I think she is .

PS:
Orientation was SUPERB ! Will post about it after I get the photos.

Personality Tests

2008-08-31T16:29:00.004+08:00

I did the personality tests on Alexander's post . I find parts of analysis quite accurate and true . Here's just part of the analysis .

How true does it depict me ?

I don't know . But , It makes me feel dam good being me :-)

These aren't the analysis for the first test . Its the ones for next test following the first test .

Here is the analysis:

1. You've got great self-confidence and you're full of charm. Most guys who get to know you will be attracted to you. You are far from sweet and proper; your intriguing personality fascinates them. Most guys find it easy to fall for a girl like you.

2. Guys see you as being a thinker and a careful person. They will be really attracted to this quality in you, but you need to learn to speak your mind, otherwise people will find you too shy and quiet. Learn to relax and lighten up--it's okay to have fun sometimes. When you learn to develop your fun-loving side, guys are going to flock to your side.

I totally , absolutely , 100% trust these statements . Hehe .

Who wouldn't ?

Week no.1

2008-08-30T22:51:00.004+08:00

I had once , anticipated , wondered and tried to imagine what Orientation at IMU and my first week there would be like .

Those were months and weeks ago .

Today , I can proudly say that I've lived through my first week !!!

In short , I would say that it was TERRIFIC !

I've found friends . I've learnt first aid . I've survived nights alone in the condominium .

Most importantly .

I've done things that I would not have imagined myself doing . Embarassing yet fun .

Back home in Tampin now . Jaded from all the activities and socialising . Just want to stop talking and sleep .

Zzz ...

In a few minutes / hours

2008-08-24T14:21:00.005+08:00

In a few minutes , I'll be scrambling around my house , looking for the things I need to bring to Bukit Jalil .

In a few minutes , I'll be packing my stuff into big travel bags .

In a few minutes , I'll be carrying these travel bags downstairs .

In a few minutes , I'll be filling the car trunk with my junk .

In a few minutes , I'll be thinking if I missed out anything .

In a few minutes , I'll be waving and saying my good bye-s and take care-s to my family .

In a few minutes , I'll be in the car and my mum will be asking me if I've taken everything I need .

In a few minutes , my dad will be asking me whether I am excited .

In a few minutes , I'll be in the car wondering what'll happen to me starting tomorrow .

In a few hours , I'll be setting foot in Vista Komanwel in Bukit Jalil .

In a few hours , I'll be unloading my junk out of the car .

In a few hour , I'll be struggling to unlock the locks to the condominium .

In a few hours , I'll be opening the biege coloured door to my room .

In a few hours , my parents and my younger brother will be sweeping , mopping , wiping and unpacking my stuff together with me .

In a few hours , I'll be standing in the middle of the room , looking to see if everything is in place .

In a few hours , I'll be reminded by my parents of certain important things .

In a few hours , I'll be saying good bye and hugging my family .

In a few hours , I'll be closing the doors to the condominium .

In a few hours , I'll be wondering , " What am I going to do now " .

In a few hours , I'll be lying in bed , praying that tomorrow will be a good day .

In a few hours , I'll be sleeping .

In a few hours , I'll be waking up , washing up and registering into IMU .

Those few minutes have passed .
I shall start scrambling around my house , looking for things I need to bring to Bukit Jalil now .

PS:

Good bye home , Good bye family , Good bye TV , Good bye Internet .
Not going to post that often from now :(

Me BOOM Box

2008-08-24T13:52:00.004+08:00

WooHoooo !!! I got my very own speakers !!!

EV-302 ( can't find this model in the internet , hope its not ciplak one )

Well , its nothing special and spectacular .

But still , I can now wake up every morning to BOOMing music !

I can watch movies and TV Series I downloaded without straining my ears drums !!

I can have a movie-watching party !!!

I can have a mini dance party !!!!

Most importantly , it breaks the silence of B-23-3 !!!!! ( The condominium I live in )

Even though its unnecessary , I am super happy and proud of me BOOM Box :)

I'm a shopaholic

2008-08-23T22:34:00.011+08:00

I've been spending a lot these days .

I've been making day trips to Melaka for the past week . Although for different purposes and with different companions , I always end up shopping at either Mahkota Parade , Dataran Pahlawan or both .

Monday -

Purpose : Shop and watch movie .
Company : My 2 brothers .
The purchase I'm most proud of : Big Apple Donuts we bought using a coupon my younger brother had . 18 donuts for around RM18 . And also stuff from Parkson .

Spent a total of : RM150 +

Wednesday -

Purpose : Lepak and watch movie .
Company : Secondary school buddies .
The purchase I'm most proud of : Fried Oyster I ate at Bunga Raya .

Spent a total of : RM 30 +

Thursday -

Purpose : Bring my sister for X-ray and shop .

Company : Younger brother and sister .
I'm most proud of : Myself , for driving without getting lost in Melaka ;)
Th purchase I'm most proud of : The Voir black long pants and shorts I bought . And also , this pair of white shoes .

Spent a total of : RM 160 +

Friday & Saturday -

Purpose : Meet Wee Sim before starting IMU .
Company : Wee Sim
The purchase I'm most proud of : My new BOOM Box ( Speakers ).
Also proud of : Stuff I bought at Guardian and Parkson .
Spent a total of : RM 300 +

Total : RM640 +

I've actually bought sufficient clothing and necessities which has cost up to an amount I can't measure ( OK , I just can't remember , but i know its a lot ) . But , I still feel like buying more .

I need a cure :'( .

PS:
Wan Xin , Reena . I misssss you very much !
Hai ... Very malas to pack my stuff :( .

Tampin Hill

2008-08-21T09:35:00.006+08:00

My neighbour , my two brothers and I went to climb Tampin Hill today .

Normally , my trips to the hill would just end at the small waterfall at half-way up the hill . But , this time I climbed with my 2 brothers up to the peak .

Our climb started around 7.15 am . The distance of our journey up the hill was measured by the electricity poles . The poles starts from 1 . You'll reach pole number 44 when you are half-way up the hill .

After pole number 44 , the path to the peak was really spooky . The course was entirely empty , as if its haunted . The trees hid behind mist .

My two brothers

It was a struggle to reach the summit . It route was steep and we didn't know how many poles we had to pass to arrive at the top . We wondered what was behind each turning .

And finally , after an hour of perpetual climbing , we reached the peak . The weather up there was cooling .

After a tiring climb , we just had to have prove . Here's our evidence . My neighbour chickenend out half way up . So , no photos of him .

Elder brother

Younger brother

Me :)

Tampin Hill is a good place for cardio workout . It really keeps your heart pumping .

If you are out of shape , this is the best place to slim yourself down . I've heard that a super overweight guy ( Tampin-ese ) climbed the hill each evening , and after a while , he was found super healthy looking .

If you ever visit Tampin , Tampin Hill is one of the spots you should not miss .

Plus , its good for camwhoring .

Nothing to do

2008-08-19T20:18:00.013+08:00

Its the last days of my long holiday . I'm wondering how I should savour these final days .

What do you do when you are bored ?

What do you do when everybody's busy with something and you have nothing to do ?

What do you do when all means of entertainment fail to entertain you ?

What do you do to keep your mind busy ?

What do you do to make time pass faster ?

I'm bored now .

My brain's empty .

PS: WALL-E , the movie , is for 10 year olds . Somebody fell asleep watching it .

How does it feel ?

2008-08-18T11:01:00.005+08:00

To be chosen .

To represent your country .

To have millions of people watch you .

To have a chance to rub shoulders with the cream of all creams .

To be the pride of your country .

To put your best foot forward for your country .

To be the heroes of your country .

To make olympic history .

Greed

2008-08-15T09:58:00.005+08:00

Remember the post about Fly FM's Music Moolah that I posted on Tuesday . I stated in that post that I would be continuing my " quest " to earn quick easy cash the following day .

That's one . Now , do you remember my 2nd reason to why I was a dope in my last post ? I stated that I made the wrong choices and that cost me a lot . Also , I stated that I lost when I could have easily won .

Both of these are related . Here's what happened .

It was Wednesday morning . Feeling lucky , I sms-ed "moolah" and sent it to 33399 . ( The requirements to join Fly FM's Music Moolah ) . Each sms cost 50 cents . I sent around a total of 8 sms .

As I listened to the songs being played on the radio , I listed them on a paper . But , there were times when the sucky lousy pathetic useless radio would go off course and I had to tune it so that I had a better reception . Sometimes , I would accidentally tune it to Hitz Fm .

Both radio stations were quite close . Both aired English songs . Therefore , people ( like me ) would think that we are listening to Fly FM when , in actual fact , we were listening to Hitz FM when a song was played . It is only when the radio Djs speaks , will we realize we're listening to the wrong channel .

Something like that happened throughout my radio-listening marathon . I listed every song I heard on the radio . At times , i accidentally tuned the radio to Hitz FM . But , stupid me listed all the songs played by the other radio channel on the paper too without canceling them off later .

At the end of the hour , i received a call . It was a KL number starting with 03 .

" Could it really be them ?" I thought . My heart started beating rapidly . My hands started shaking . I took a couple of deep breaths to diminish the evil-doings of my nerves . Instincts told me that Fly FM was calling . Gathering my courage , I answered the call .

I was right .

It was Fly FM . It was either Phat Fabes or Ben on the other line .

I tried my best and gave the DJ 5 songs on my list . I was confident that those songs were played .

To my dismay , my high hopes of being RM500 richer were shattered !

SHATTERED !

Apparently , I got one of the songs wrong .

It angered me that I actually had several other songs on my list but I had to choose the wrong one . I was furious that the radio had to go off tune . I was infuriated at myself for not canceling the wrong songs off my list after realizing I was on the wrong radio channel .

It was Sarah Bareillies's Love Song that snowballed my RM500 to the next nominated sms-er in the next segment .

After what just happened , I was determined to get back the money . I sent sms-es as if they were free of charge . I was desperate to gain back the money and also my dignity . I felt stupid and embarrassed at what just happened that it turned me moody the whole day .

The most nightmarish thing was I even heard my self blow away my chances when the recording with the Dj was played on the radio .

Too caught up and desperate , I didn't realize my escalating phone bill. Its now 3 times the amount I need to pay per month . Thankfully , my grandma gave me a big "ang pau" . Therefore , I guess I'll be using that to alleviate the damages .

Although Fly Fm Music Moolah is still on until Sunday , I've manage to stop myself from sending more sms-es .

To tell you the truth , I feel like I've just been released from the devil's grasp . I don't feel moody like those days when I was super caught up because of Fly Fm .

What happened made me realize why Greed was one of the 7 deadliest sins .

Greed is tantamount to no good . In a way , it acts like drugs . Once you start , you cannot stop . It gets you addicted and seek for more . When you feel the need to stop , Greed tempts , encourages and motivates you to continue . If you've fallen in , too deep , Greed destroys you .

So , becareful . Be wise .

I've learnt my lesson .

PS: Do not mention these words or sing this song when I'm in your presence .

Sarah Bareillis Love Song
Sarah Bareillis
Sarah
Bareillis
Love Song

I'll chop , grind , mince , marinate and barbeque you with my own hands .

Help ! I'm a dope !

2008-08-13T23:10:00.007+08:00

Early in the morning , I went to CIMB bank to open a bank account .

Filled out forms , signed here , signed there and waited for the staff to do his magic .

When everything was settled , I was required to key in my pin number .

And so , I went up to the ATM machine and keyed in the numbers I wanted . When I was finished with it , the CIMB ATM machine printed out a receipt ( like how all ATM machines do ) .

Being very curious of the typings on the receipt , I chose to take my own sweet time and read it word by word , while leaving the Bankcard still in the machine .

Just when I reached out my hands for the card , it automatically entered the ATM machine .

And the screen showed something like Maaf sth sth sth . Stating that my card got " eaten " .

I went back to seek help from the staff . But he said they couldn't open the machine as they didn't have the keys to it . Furthermore , he told me that I had to wait till the people from KL who has the key to open it . Therefore , I don't have the card with me now .

I think this was the first time something like this had ever happened in the bank .

The man and the other staff must have thought , " Where got people get Bankcard and lose Bankcard in the same hour one ?"

I feel so embarrassed and stupid and also pathetic .

I did something else that made me felt even more dumb than Dumb and Dumber . It had a straight forward answer to it , but I made the wrong choice . And that cost me ... A LOT ( in terms of cash and emotions ) .

Because of the wrong choice , I lost when I could have easily won .

I felt so terrible today , that I have to keep telling myself , " What's pass is past , tomorrow's a new day and a new beginning . "

Then , I thought to myself . A doctors job involves making decisions and choices . One slight mistake may cost a life . Throughout my 20 years of living , when it comes to situations where I had to make choices , I made a majority of wrong choices .

I worry for my future patients . I worry for their lives . I worry that I'll be a lean mean killing machine .

Music MOOLAH !

2008-08-12T16:34:00.004+08:00

Have you heard of Fly fm Music Moolah ??

Fly fm is giving away money . A lot of money . RM 50 , 000 to be exact . All we have to do is name 5 songs and the artiste who sang those songs that were played from the beginning of the hour . Yep , its as simple as kacang ! At least that's what I thought .

You just have to register and send "moolah" to 33399 . Each SMS cost RM 0.50 .

Then , just sit down and start listening to at least 5 songs and wait to be called . It started on the 4th and will be ending on the 17th .

If you are super lucky , and you get called and get all 5 songs correct . You win RM 500 .

If you are jinxed , the money will snow ball to the next segment . And you waste the money spent on the sms-es you made .

I don't think I'm the born with super good luck . But , what the heck , I'll just give it a try .

6 more days to try for RM500 or more .

I sent out 5 sms-es with really high hopes of being called by fly fm . During the whole 1 hour , my fingers were trembling . Don't ask me why I shook . My body just works that way .

At the end of the hour , some other girl turned out to be the winner .

I really wonder how Fly fm nominate who to be called .

How many sms-es do i have to send to get nominated ? How fast do I have to send the sms ? How early do I have to send it ?

Anyways , no luck to day . Continue tomorrow .

Tuesday , 12/08/08
4.00pm - Invested RM2.50 .

King of all stomach bloaters

2008-08-09T23:10:00.007+08:00

My tummy is super bloated now . Just came back from my younger brother's farewell dinner . He'll be flying off to Russia to pursue his studies in Medicine . Because of that , my dad gave a treat to my neighbours who are as close as family to us .

We went to a restaurant at Batu Kikir in Negeri Sembilan called Restoran Ban Hing .

This restaurant is well known for their unique dishes and special ingredients used in their dishes . Moreover , Ban Hing restaurant has a few awards and trophies in their pockets . They were the champion in the International Kitchen Emperor Challenge Match of 2007 . They were also champion in the International Cake Art Competition 2007 .

See the golden chef trophy ?

Its funny . A restaurant like this should have earned a visit from tv programmes like " Ho Chiak " and " Journey with Jason " . But suprisingly , it hasn't .

My dad ordered a total of 8 dishes . But by the time we had dish no.4 . Our tummies were already quite full . Thus , we had no choice but to cancel one dish ( chicken ) .

Our dinner started off with titbits . Most Chinese restaurants would use either salted peanuts , flour-coated peanuts or keropok as their titbits .

But not Restoran Ban Hing .

They used braised nuts , Macademia nuts and dried squid instead . The Macademia and dried squid were fresh and crispy .

The first dish we had was cold dish .

Everything on it was super yummy . My dad specially ordered scallops as they were also known for their seafood . They had ( clockwise starting from the green beans ) crunchy beans friend with bamboo clams , fish-prawn balls , fried dried oysters , some fried breadcrum thingie with yummy stuffing and sesame fried chicken .

As for the second dish , we had " 3 flavors of prawns " ( translated from chinese ) .

There are 3 different kind of prawns in this dish i.e. fried yam-coated prawns , prawns in fruit salad and prawns cooked in ( i think ) eggs sauce . The prawns are huge , fresh and juicy .

The 3rd dish is called " Vegetable Bucket " .

As you can see , the food is presented in a bucket . It consist of all kinds of meat and vegetables . All arranged " level by level " . Chicken , barbeque pork , roast duck and broccoli on the first level . Then comes the scallops , sea cucumbers , dried oyster , shitake mushrooms and the fish bladders . The roast duck was very very delicious . The ingredients and sauces used to marinate the duck have penetrated into its flesh .

The 4th dish was steam fish .

The fish we had was called " Ikan Hantu " / " Ghost Fish " . I don't know why . The fish was steamed to perfection . Its flesh was soft and had no fishy smell . By then , most of us were already 3/4 filled even though we had 3 more dishes coming our way .

We had sharks fin as the 5th dish .

Its presentation was different from normal chinese restaurants . It tasted quite different from the normal Shark's fin soup that we order . Its a bit sweet .

6th dish : roast duck .

This is the most average of all 7 dishes we had . Its not as delectable as i expected it to be from its crispy-looking appearance . Just like normal roast ducks we buy from markets and duck rice shops .

We had Frog Mee Hoon as the final dish .

Frogs !!! A lot of frogss !!! This was a very special dish . We anticipated this dish right from the start . But , too bad , we couldn't enjoy it to the fullest as we were all bloated by the time it came . Frogs are actually very toothsome . The texture of the flesh is something like a combination of fish and chicken . Its soft yet not as soft as fish . Its tough but not as tough as chicken . The Mee Hoon itself was tasty too .

That's all of the dishes we had . The bill came to a total of RM 874 for a table of 16 people . Its approximately RM 55 per head .

It is quite expensive . But , its uniqueness and heavenly-tasted dishes makes it all worth it .

I'm like advertising for Restoran Ban Hing with no commisions and advertising fees . But , I love food , I find the place special and want others to know about it .

Here's the address and contact number of the place :

No.104-A , Jalan Besar ,
72200 Batu Kikir ,
Negeri Sembilan .

Tel : 06-4981680
Hp : 013-6098228 , 012-9306888

If you are coming Tampin , head towards Kuala Pilah . From Kuala Pilah , continue driving straight till you reach the Kuala Pilah border . When you are out from Kuala Pilah , go on straight and you'll reach the border of Jempol . Continue straight on a little bit further . The restaurant's on your right .

Restoran Ban Hing rules !

A day of cleaning brings no cheer

2008-08-08T21:48:00.010+08:00

My legs are killing me ! I finally packed and moved my stuff to my ( considerably ) bare room at Bukit Jalil . Went up to KL , early in the morning , today to clean the whole condo unit so that its squeeeeeaky clean !

The condo unit that I'll be staying at used to have occupants . Well , for some mysterious reasons , both of them moved out just when I'm moving in . Very eerie eh ? The master bedroom was occupied by the condo owner's nephew . He moved out from his room already but his stuff are still everywhere in the condo .

Speaking of him , he actually came by the condo to get some of his stuff today . His name's Joshua . I didn't get the chance to see him . But my dad did . According to my dad , he's looks like a Eurasian .

And the thing is ... Eurasians are , without a single bit of doubt , gorgeous ! And i missed him !!

Where was I ? In the toilet .

@#$% ! My dad said he looked handsome . And i downright trust my dad's taste . Sadly , he's moved out . * mourn*

Therefore , I'll be the only , very super lonely , one occupying the whole condo .

I don't naturally clean , vacuum , sweep , mop , scrub , wipe and polish for hours alone . But I had to today . My dad and younger brother had to settle some stuff then only join me in my cleaning " spree ".

The whole condo was an utter mess . When you step in , you can feel the foulness of the air . Dust layered the tiles . That was the living room I'm talking about .

If the living room was a mess , then the kitchen would be total monstrosity .

The stoves were oily and dusty . Try to picture a whole stove area , with splashes of cooking oil ( on the walls , the stove and the floor ) , topped with dust as icing . One would just shudder and flee upon the sight .

I started off at around 8 am from my room .

The four corners of my room looks like this before the cleaning fairy came . Its actually quite spacious and may fit another person . But , I neeeed my privacy .

After the vacuuming , sweeping , scrubbing , wiping , moving in , assembling and feng-shui calculating , my room turned out like this .

That box has my microwave , moving it out to the kitchen when I've moved in

Nice or not ? I think its sweet and simple . Just the way i like it .

After my room was done , my dad and bro came to my rescue . They cleaned up the oily and dusty wet kitchen for me while i cleaned the living room and the dry kitchen . Thank God they came !

Everything came to an end at around 6 pm . That's around 10 hours of non-stop cleaning for me .

I amaze myself sometimes :P .

By the time we reached home , my whole body ached , especially my legs . But , it was all worth the ache . I'm super contented with my room and condo , now that its squeeeeeaky clean . Well , that wasn't the only thing that turned out squeeeeeaky clean .

Do you see the shine ?

I think the detergent was super strong that it make my hands shine naturally ( no oil ) .

*** NOTE *** :

Masterbed room with attached bathroom and medium sized room for rent .

Preferably IMU students .
Its at Vista Komanwel Block B , on the 23rd floor , condominium no.3 .
Kitchen has a water filter , fridge , electronic hot water flask ( it boils , reboils and keeps the water warm ) and a functional stove .
Bathroom is medium sized .
Has balcony .

Masterbedroom :

Big and spacious . Enough for 2-3 person .
Has an attached bathroom .
A queen-sized bed .
Air-conditioned .

Medium sized room :

Quite spacious . Enough for 1-2 person.
Air-conditioned .

Why you should rent these rooms ?

Its just opposite IMU . You can wake up 5 minutes before lectures .
I've cleaned up the whole place . So , its now very clean . In addition , its still quite new and was well-maintained by the owner .
Both rooms have picturesque views . I'm serious !
The condo owner is trustworthy and friendly . He's willing to help you if you need any assistance .
The living room is empty ( no couch , no tv ) but its a good place to chat and study .
I'll be there for 2 years plus from 25th of August of 2008 :)
I need a condo-mate . Loneliness might destroy me mentally .

Please DO consider , spread the word to your friends and drop a comment if you are interested . I'll give you the owner's contact and you can discuss the price and ask whatever you want to know . He's kind and trustworthy . If you aren't satisfied with some of the room conditions . Let him know . He'll try his best to assist you and fix the problem .

Keep in mind that I'm not the owner . Just another IMU student .

Long Hair Vs Short Hair

2008-08-06T20:56:00.007+08:00

Long hair says , " I'm hot because ..."

I'm more sensuous to look at .
I sway and move .
I reflect light .
I trap scents e.g perfume better . I smell hotter !
I'm the ultimate symbol of feminity !
I save money on hair cuts .
I can be straightened , curled and styled .
I can be tied up to be neat and tidy .

But Short hair says , " You suck because ..."

More precious time is wasted on washing , straightening , curling and styling you .
You irritate and heat up the skin on the neck .
Sometimes , you get in the way . Damn disturbing ! Especially when it gets into your mouth when you are eating .
You tie knots to yourself and consequently tangle up .
You use more shampoo , more conditioner , more hair scrunchies . More MONEY !
You are dangerous . Remember the Genting Spaceshot rumour? It is possible .
You attract weirdos with long hair fetish !!
You are hard to manage !
You shed a LOT . Everywhere ! Especially in Bathrooms till you clog the drains.
You are more prone to split ends .
You are heavy .

Long hair says , " Well , you suck too ... "

You have only limited styles . No pony tail . No braids . No buns .
You don't look sensuous .
You don't reflect light .
You need frequent hair cuts .
You don't smell as good .
You don't have my good sways and moves .
You are less feminine .

Short hair laughs out loud , " Wahahaha ... I'm so much better ! "

I'm easy to manage .
I'm not a pain in the ass . I don't get into mouths .
I save time . I dry faster . I clean faster . No time is wasted on styling .
I keep the neck cool and itch-free .
I save money . Less shampoo , conditioners and moisturisers or wax used .
I don't tangle up as much as you do .
I don't shed and clog up bathroom drains .
I may not be sensous but I'm funky , bubbly and as head-turning . There are heaps of cute hairstyles .
I'm less prone to split ends .
I'm lighter on the head .

And so , Short Hair won the intense battle with more pros and less cons . Whereas long hair lost like how Malaysia lost to Chelsea .

I had my haircut today !!!

Still feel very awkward looking at it . Need more time to get used to it .

My head feels super light now . And it doesn't shed as much as long hair does . ( Yes , its true !! No need to go to Yun Nam Hair Care Centre )

Feel a bit shy to put up the photo . All I can say is , I look ... different .

Something like Cleopatra's hair do . But without the super horizontal fringe .

Plus , want my photo , got to pay !! :P

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Nope , not me . This is my hot sista !
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Pai Seh laa~ Don't Laugh!

Mindmap software for free !

2008-08-05T22:14:00.004+08:00

I found a site which enables you to download and install a mindmap software for free .

The mindmap software helps you make mindmaps and its user friendly .

I spent the whole day playing and making stupid mindmaps . But , it was fun some how .

Very " bo liao " ho ...

It might be useful for those of you who believe in mindmaps .

of godmothers , tiramisu and trains

2008-08-02T13:31:00.003+08:00

P/S : This is a super long post . Beware !

Part I : My godmother

Do you people have godmothers ( kai ma ) or godfathers ( kai ba ) ? I personally don't believe in this kind of relationships .

I went to KL yesterday to spend some time with Wee Sim on his birthday .

During the whole journey , from Tampin bus station right to KL Pudu Raya , I sat with this middle-aged lady who could talk incessantly to me in the bus .

I wasn't really in the mood to talk as I was really sleepy and felt nausea . But , it would have been very rude of me to just leave her talking alone . I , therefore , made a little conversation with her .

She was the one talking 95 % of the time . Whereas , the other 5 % involved me making " oh " , " mmm " , and " hahaha"s .

It was nice chatting with her coz i didn't have to think of things to say . But i felt like screaming at the bus driver to drive faster so that the lady and i would part ways ASAP .

It was unlucky of me to board that bus . Of all 7 days , the Transnasional bus driver decided yesterday was the day to take the Kampung road to KL . Instead of a 1 hour 30 minutes ride , it turned out to be a 2 hour 40 minutes ride .

From the chat , I found out she lived with her husband ( who was a chinese medicine doctor ) in Puchong and didn't have any children . She had many godchildren though ( kai lui and kai zai ) and they were scattered all over Malaysia .

We , eventually , talked about our backgrounds and our conversation became more personal .

Surprisingly , she was same age as my mum , her husband was same age as my dad , both her hubby and my parents were in the same field in their career , and she had a goddaughther who looked like me . All of a sudden , we had so much in common .

She, then , started rejoicing that she met me and the coincidences between her life and mine . She reiterated there was an affinity ( yuan2 in chinese ) between us .

Unawarely , without asking my agreement , she blurted out in chinese : " Hahaha ! Another goddaughther ! That's so good ! " .

I froze .

Everything happened so fast . She then gave me a Dunhill pen , a bookmark , her hubby's name card with her name and her contact number on it and asked me to visit her when I'm free . Again , I thought that it would be rude to suddenly reject her . Thus , I joined her in her joy with the thought : " this is a joke . "

In return , I gave her my contact number and my name .

When we reached Pudu Raya , she walked with me , holding my hand like a mother holds her child . Before our paths diverged , she told me to be extra vigilant wherever i went .

Finally , we shook hands and promised to keep in touch .

On my way to the LRT station , i took much thought into what just happened . Should I maintain this rapport between this lady and me ? Or should I just don't care at all ? I decided to just wait and see . Maybe the lady would just forget about me too .

Part II : Tiramisu

I met up with wee sim at the Universiti lrt station . We went to Bangsar's hottest spot to have a bite of the Tiramisu cake that he loved so much .

The cafe is called Alexis . The setting inside Alexis was very classy . You would feel super out of place if you went in with t-shirt and shorts .

The Tiramisu with cognac was very yummy . Not too sweet , not too creamy , not too strong . Just downright perfect .

It cost us whopping RM 13 per slice . Expensive .

The had a variety of cakes . I would want to return to Alexis for other cakes next time .

We went to SS2 and Sungei Wang to shop for clothes then . And I went to KL Sentral when the clock struck 8 pm to take the 8.30pm train to Tampin .

Part III : Trains

After Wee Sim and I parted ways , I went to the platform myself . There were 2 trains waiting to be filled at that moment . I wasn't sure which one to board . The situation there was very busy . People were pushing and entering coaches .

The train on my right had a sign that said it would go to Butterworth while the other train on my left had a sign that said it would go to W.Bahru ( or something like that which I wasn't familiar with ) . I knew where Butterworth was and it was North . Besides , I saw some Tampinese boarding that train . So I boarded the W.Bahru train undefinitely .

Up on the train , I settled down and started reading the novel I brought up . I didn't feel the need to confirm that I was in the right train until it started moving .

Feeling very insecure and uncertain , I ask the man beside me where the train was heading to .

To my shock , he said : " Kelantan " .

@$%*# , I was on the wrong train !!

I jumped up and quickly headed to the door . But by that time , the train was gaining speed already . At one point , I felt like opening the door and jump out the coach like in the movies . Then again , all those action were done by the stunt men . And i wasn't a trained one . I would have broken all the bones in my body if i were to jump out from the train . That was a stupid idea .

Then , a lady who passed by told me that i could only get out of the train at Kajang . My plan to the problem was to get down at Kajang , take the komuter to Seputeh and follow my aunty ( who was going back to Tampin ) back home .

So I called my aunty , to see if she had left KL . Unfortunately , she was already half-way there and was in Seremban at the moment .

At that moment , I felt like crying . My heart throbbed rapidly . I shivered with fear . I had cold sweat . I panicked .

I told my aunty about my predicament . I told her that I had boarded the train to Kelantan and would be stopping at Kajang . At first , she suggested that I went to my uncle's house instead of coming back to Tampin .

Then it hit me . Why did the train pass by Midvalley , Seputeh and heading to Kajang next ? It was on the path towards Seremban . I told my aunty immediately .

Then everything started falling into place . The train WAS going to Kelantan . But , it was going south first and then , make a U-turn towards the north .

Those were music to my ears . I felt so relieved . I was going back to Tampin tonight after all .

It was blur and stupid of me to have undefinitely boarded the train without asking around .

My brain must be very rusty . Hai ... Very blur these days .

A lesson learnt . I'm sure I'll never repeat it again . I'll kill myself if i do .

Happy Birthday & 1 year anniversary .

2008-08-01T01:46:00.010+08:00

To My Mr.Hony

project smile

2008-08-01T00:14:00.005+08:00

I'm trying to collect good Malaysian jokes from the internet and compile them into a file . Its just for entertainment purposes when i am away from home and lonely .

Its really hard to get good ones that can really make you laugh till your stomach starts cramping . Most of them just manage to give you a little tickle or make you grin inside . Therefore i call it "Project SMILE " and not " Project Laugh " .

Many I found are about a guy named Ah Beng and the things that he do . Here's one that , i think , is quite good .

Ah Beng bought a new mobile.
He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said,
'My Mobile No. Has changed.
Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610'

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Ah Beng : I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College .
Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No, he is not studying, they are Studying him.

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Ah Beng : Doctor, in my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng : Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.

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Ah Beng : If I die, will u remarry?
Wife: No! I'll stay with my sister. But if I die will u remarry?
Ah Beng : No, I'll also stay with your sister.

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Ah Beng : People consider me as a 'GOD'
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng : When I went to the Fisherman's Wharf at Taman Desa last night, everybody said,
Oh GOD! U have come again.

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Ah Beng complained to the police: 'Sir, all items are missing,
except the TV in my house.'
Police: 'How the thief did not take TV?'
Ah Beng : 'I was watching ManU bungkus Locky Blu's Stoke City,what... '

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Ah Beng comes back to his car & find a note saying 'Parking Fine'
He Writes a note and sticks it to a pole 'Thanks for complement.'

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How do you recognize Ah Beng in School?
He is the one who erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases
the board.

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Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and not on other.
So the man asked him why he did so. He replied that the weather forecast
announced that on one hand it would be cold and on the other hand it would
be hot.

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Ah Beng in National Press Club and his cellular phone rings. He picks it up and
Says 'Hello, how did you know I was here?'

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Ah Beng : Why are all these people running?
Man - This is a race, the winner will get the cup
Ah Beng - If only the winner will get the cup, why others running?

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Teacher: 'I killed a person' convert this sentence into future tense
Ah Beng : The future tense is 'u will go to jail'

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Ah Beng told his maid: 'Go and water the plants!'
Servant: 'It's already raining.'
Ah Beng : 'So what? Take umbrella and go.'

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A man asked Ah Beng why Ahmad Badawi goes walking in the Evening and not
in the morning Ah Beng replied Ahmad Badawi is PM not AM

If you have any jokes or joke websites to share , please , do share :) .

DANGGG !!!

2008-07-28T12:29:00.007+08:00

I got punk'd by one of my friends ! DANGGG !! I so so so don't like that kind of feeling . But since it was for my birthday , well , I forgive you Yi hong .

My friends ( Ee Teen , Boon Siew and Yi hong ) threw me a surprise on the night before my birthday ... Why am i only posting it now you ask ? Well , I've finally recovered from it .

So the surprise started like this .

It was the 21st of July 2008 , approximately around 7.45pm . There I was sitting in front of the computer , giving my " 19 year of bygones " post the finishing touches . So , type type click click ...

Suddenly , the phone rang.

I answered the phone . And , heck , it was so damn obvious that Ee Teen was at the other end of the line . The other funny thing was she kinda blew her own cover . I guess her call here to my house was to see if i was at home .

Instead of asking for me , she asked for my sister . But , I've known and heard her voice from form 2 . And her voice leaves a mark in your head once you've heard it . So , its kinda hard to just not recognise it when you hear it . Our conversation on the phone went something like this :

EeTeen : Hello ... ( I knew it was ee teen already )
Shi yi : Hello ...
EeTeen : Is Shiiiiiiiii...Rui there ? ( I was 100% sure it was Ee teen )
Shiyi : ........ * thinking why is Ee Teen asking for my sis * ... Shiii Rui aah , she went for tuition .
Ee Teen : Oh , never mind la .
Shiyi : ok ... ( the phone call ends here )

From the phone call , i knew something was going to happen before the clock strikes 12 tonight .

Tampinese have a tradition . We would gather and go to the birthday boy/girl's house at 12 midnight to give him/her a birthday surprise .

This time would be the same . So , I thought .

At around 8.oopm , I felt the need to tell someone that i've uncovered a surprise . Yi hong , who 's currently in Australia , was the only one online . I confided in him . Our MSN chat was something like this , i remember only parts of it , didn't save it in history :

Shiyi : eh , Yi hong ah ... i think ee teen , sze wen and boon siew might be going to give me a surpirse later le ..
Yi hong : Haha ... How do you know ?
Shiyi : I'm not very sure one la . . . but i think should be lo , just now ee teen called , she didn't ask for me , but for my sister . . . and then its damn obvious that it is her .
Yi hong : Shiyi , you are so bad , why you so clever , should just let them surprise you ..
Shiyi : I can't blame myself for being so clever one ma ...
Yi hong : sweat ....
Shiyi : Nevermind la ... haha .. just act act a bit later la . haha .
Yi hong : Haha . So bad la you . ... ( then he said something , criticizing my acting skills )
Shiyi : people call me queen of the movie screens ok .
Shiyi : Later when they come and surprise me , i call my sis to video cam my acting skills . then i send it to you . you judge yourself . haha .
Yi hong : Sweat again ...
Shiyi : eh , i feel like giving them a counter surprise le . Like they come and surprise me , then i surprise them back . i feel like buying a pizza and set the tables for them . when they come , its like i'm already waiting for them to feast at my house .
Yi hong : okok . can also . not bad . You set all the cups and plates ready . haha . you so sure they coming to surprise you .
Shiyi : mmm .... not sure . If they really come , then ok lo . If they never come , then , the pizza i eat my self . the drinks i drink myself also lo . no harm done .
Yi hong : haha . ( he then dissapears for a few 5 to 10 minutes )
Shiyi : eh , don't tell them la . let me try surprising them back la. this one time ma . We never initiate a counter surprise before . ( and i continued like that while he was away , coz instinct told me he would rat me out )

when he came back

Yi hong : shiyi !! Go now if you want to surprise them !
Yi hong : NOW !!
Shiyi : *shocked* but i haven't bath and i still haven't finish my post le .
Yi hong : Oh ... Then , nevermind . Continue blogging la ... Enjoy yourself !

That was the end of our chat . Not heeding Yi hong's advice , i continued taking my own sweet time typing away , walking in and out the room ... having in mind that i have a few hours more to midnight .

At around 9 pm , I finally clicked the mouse to publsih my post . " Ok , this leaves me with bathing and buying the pizza , " i thought , smilling away at my master mind ruse .

But somehow , I continued staring at the monitor to see if i made any major mistakes in my post * scroll scroll scroll * ...

All of a sudden , out of no where , I see Ee Teen and Boon Siew .

My mind went blank .

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DANGGG !!

I didn't know how i should have reacted . I seeked for something more natural and comforting to me . And so , I turned my face back to the monitor of the computer and started scrolling again ...

That was stupid and slow of me to react that way.

So that was it . The most embarrasing yet surprising birthday bombshell i've gotten so far .

And i was right , Yi hong ratted me out . Turns out , he gave a call to ee teen when he suddenly dissapeared from the chat room .

From left , ee teen , me and boon siew

Many many MANY thanks to Boon Siew and Ee Teen and also .... Yi Hong for this unforgettable event . Thank you very much Boon Siew and Ee Teen for the time , sweat and effort both of you spent preparing the surprise . Thank you for bringing the rambutans , durians , dragon fruit , mangosteens , papayas , peanuts , sweet-sour stuff , junk food , pandan chiffon cake and Vanhoutten Macademia chocolates .

Pei Ying (white) , Boon Siew (green), Me and Ee Teen (grey) at the Tampin Hill water fall doing ROCKSTAR poses

I had a wonderful day .

Funny Review

2008-07-25T18:15:00.003+08:00

Have you watch The Dark Knight which stars Heath Ledger and Christian Bale ??

Well , I haven't . And I am dying to watch it . Those who watched it are constantly talking and complimenting it . Never have i seen such compliments directed at a superhero movie before .

I came across this review in the STAR newspaper today . And my mind's all set .

I'm going to watch this movie no matter what .

This is how the movie review of the Dark Knight went :

Ladies and gentlemen , the year 's cinematic juggernaut has arrived . If you see only one film this year , then this must be it . The Dark Knight has my vote for film of the year . If you miss this film , then I feel sorry for you . So sorry . Very sorry .

I'm sorry , am I being condescending ? Sorry - Hisham Zulkifli

Rating: 5 out of 5 stars

Short , Simple and Totally Enough to Draw me to GSC .

0 % lust ??!

2008-07-23T12:05:00.002+08:00

Your Deadly Sins

Envy: 40%

Greed: 40%

Pride: 40%

Wrath: 40%

Gluttony: 20%

Sloth: 20%

Lust: 0%

Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29%

You will die in a duel.

How Sinful Are You?