so get a helmet
My head. My heart.
Date: Wednesday, May 20, 2009
Time: 9:32 AM
Why do I feel that I’m not appreciated ? Why do I feel that he is just fitting me into his activities ? Why do I feel that I am not one of his activities ?
Why do I still feel that I’m the boyfriend and he is the girlfriend ? Why do I still feel that he isn’t putting much effort ? Why do I still feel that I’m alone in this relationship ?
I’m depressed .
Am I thinking too much ? Am I caring too much ? Am I not mature enough to handle such a relationship ?
Is it me ?
No , it can’t be . Can it ?
It happened again . Pre and post exam . No messages . No calls . If there were calls , it would be a miserable 7 minute call . Why do I feel that those 7 minutes are not sufficient ? Should it exceed 7 minutes ?
All of a sudden . I’m confused . Should it be this way ? or shouldn’t it ? Have I been influenced by Korean dramas ? But I’ve only watched one or two Korean series so far .
What if we were just normal friends ? What if I ended the relationship ? Something’s wrong .
NO NO NO . Stop thinking negatively . He is a fine person . Think of the good times . Remember that he drives from UM to spend time with you . He handmade roses for you on Valentine’s Day . He kinda paid for all the Chicken Essence you bought for exam purposes .
Its just so depressing whenever he chooses friends over me . And I am in no position to stop him from choosing his friends .
My head’s telling me , “ End it” . My heart’s telling me , “ don’t care so much” .
To tell you the truth , I really feel like ending it now . But how ? What will happen ? What if it turned out to be a mistake to let him go ? I don’t want to beg him to accept me .
What the heck … leave the situation be and hope for a miracle .
11.27pmHe asked me out :]
I think its the post exam nothing-to-do-ness that's messing with my head .
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