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I Love Running

Date: Monday, October 12, 2009
Time: 11:45 PM

I enjoy running . It is some sort of medication for my soul . It never fails to lift me up .

Only recently , i experienced running as a form of torture .

I just came back from Road Relay competition which involved running 2.9km . Each team consist of 5 people . 3 guys and 2 girls .

Flashes of what happened just now is running through my head now .

First runner from our team sped off . He was fast . But others were faster . We were 4th .

2nd runner received the baton . We managed to catch up . We were near 3rd .

3rd runner threw his leg forward the furthest he could . And we were 3rd .

I was the 4th runner . With the baton in my hand , i ran as fast as my fat leg brought me . Up the first slope . I see the runner of the next team just a bit ahead of me ... The team which was leading ( no.1 ) was no where in sight . Sigh . How long till i see her ? I thought . And i continued running but at a more comfortable pace .

"I can do this . I can do this . Don't stop .She's just a few steps away. Don't stop . Speed up ." I kept repeating to myself . After the checkpoint , i passed the girl who was ahead of me . On down , one more to go . I could hear See Wei cheering for Taurus ( our team ) . " Time to hit 4th gear ". From then on . My head was totally blank .It was dark . I couldn't see where i was running . My muscles were filled with lactic acid . I'm 2nd now . I came to a curb . Roshnee and Cyril ( my team mates who were there as marshals ) were there . They came close to me . I heard them cheering . " Come on Shi Yi . You can do it Shi Yi " I heard Roshnee's voice . I heard Cyril's voice . I passed the curb . And i saw my opponent . I could see that she was struggling . So was I . I felt like stopping . I really really did wanted to stop . But i couldn't . " Its just that bit further . Overtake her . Mess with her confidence . " All kinds of strategies suddenly flooded my mind .

I reached the slopes . " Open stride . Open stride . " A Tip from Jia Wei ( my team mate ) before the run started . First slope accomplished . A 100 meter flat road ahead . Then came the 2nd slope down . I was closer to her now . Just a few faster and bigger strides , and i'll be ahead of her . When should i pass her ? Would i be sprinting too early to the finish line . " SPRINT and go ALL OUT from the sign board . " Another tip from Jia Wei before the run . And i passed my opponent .

I felt my heart pumping so hard . "PUSH ON. Just a little more " The finish line was in sight . I had to tell myself that . Even though , it felt so far away . " She's catching up . She's catching up . All out now "

I sprinted the last 100meters . And it was then . I felt like crying . I really wanted to stop . It was such a terrible feeling . Painful . A torture . But , how could i stop when i was so near the finish line . "Come on , Come on " i repeated in my mind . I breathed so hard , I think a few leaves actually flew off the ground . After a few more breath , i was sounding out the words " come on, come on " when i exhaled. I wonder if anyone heard me .

I saw Jia Wei waiting with his palms stretched out to me . He was ready to speed off as the last runner of our team . I picked my legs up for the last time . Pushed my muscles to the maximum . Placed the baton in his palms . There ... My battle was over .

We were leading for that few moments till the last runner of the other team caught up . We came in 2nd . It was just 10 seconds difference . But , i was really happy . Happy that i pushed myself .

I really needed to get my thoughts here . . . Its been quite some time since i pushed myself that hard . All thanks to running . I now know i can achieve my goals if i pushed myself hard enough. It just takes a little bit of determination and endurance . And if you could endure that few moments of pain until the very end . You are a winner .

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Busy beee ?

Date: Friday, October 2, 2009
Time: 3:48 PM


Arrrgh ! I've been so busy lately .

Actually , no , i think I'm not that busy after all . I just waste a lot of time . Sleeping when i don't need to sleep at all really takes up a lot of time . Ferreting around my cupboard and the refrigerator for food, when i don't feel hungry at all , also takes up a lot of time . I'm so very lazy compared to the days in Semester 1 and 2 and especially form 6 .

I realize i only come to my blog really late at night . Guess that i've found the time when I feel like pouring out my soul and do some reflecting .

Reflecting it shall be ... GREAT. . .All i can think now is that i really need to get serious and study . I haven't been studying . I remember telling myself i need to start studying hard after how terrible i fumbled in the last examination .Its been 5 weeks since . Still the same though . Its so hard to put words into action .

But , i've improved a little . I managed to cut the Facebook addiction to less then 2 hours per day .Yes , i can spend a lot of time on Facebook just looking through photo albums and click click click away . Need to further reduce it . Ha! See , i ' ve got self-control . Though , i have to give some credit to my ever super slow and unstable internet connection .

Next week will be a busy week . Not because of sleep and the food in my cupboard . But , IMU cup . The table tennis representative ( the guy who has to find for players for the competition ) just called me an hour ago , asking me to play for the house . Not because i'm good at it , but because no one else wants to play .

I initially put down my name in hopes of training myself and improve my ping pong playing skills ... but I couldn't attend the trainings and there were so few trainings . Thus , I decided not to play . Now , the competition is just 3 days away . I shudder at imagining the volume of laughter that would fill the halls of IMU . EEeek

I would very much prefer not to embarrass myself . I can't take public humiliation very well .


But then , the guy was so ... kesian + desperate . I rejected him at first . But , I could hear from his voice and tone that he's really fed up already and just wants to get his job done . And since I was the representative of the event - road relay , i knew very well how difficult it was to get ppl to come for training . So ... yup , i have agreed to embarrass myself on Monday .


Sigh ... stupid decisions i make these days .

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