so get a helmet
DANGGG !!!
Date:
Monday, July 28, 2008
Time:
12:29 PM
I got punk'd by one of my friends ! DANGGG !! I so so so don't like that kind of feeling . But since it was for my birthday , well , I forgive you Yi hong .
My friends ( Ee Teen , Boon Siew and Yi hong ) threw me a surprise on the night before my birthday ... Why am i only posting it now you ask ? Well , I've finally recovered from it .
So the surprise started like this .
It was the 21st of July 2008 , approximately around 7.45pm . There I was sitting in front of the computer , giving my " 19 year of bygones " post the finishing touches . So , type type click click ...
Suddenly , the phone rang.
I answered the phone . And , heck , it was so damn obvious that Ee Teen was at the other end of the line . The other funny thing was she kinda blew her own cover . I guess her call here to my house was to see if i was at home .
Instead of asking for me , she asked for my sister . But , I've known and heard her voice from form 2 . And her voice leaves a mark in your head once you've heard it . So , its kinda hard to just not recognise it when you hear it . Our conversation on the phone went something like this :
EeTeen : Hello ... ( I knew it was ee teen already )
Shi yi : Hello ...
EeTeen : Is Shiiiiiiiii...Rui there ? ( I was 100% sure it was Ee teen )
Shiyi : ........ * thinking why is Ee Teen asking for my sis * ... Shiii Rui aah , she went for tuition .
Ee Teen : Oh , never mind la .
Shiyi : ok ... ( the phone call ends here )
From the phone call , i knew something was going to happen before the clock strikes 12 tonight .
Tampinese have a tradition . We would gather and go to the birthday boy/girl's house at 12 midnight to give him/her a birthday surprise .
This time would be the same . So , I thought .
At around 8.oopm , I felt the need to tell someone that i've uncovered a surprise . Yi hong , who 's currently in Australia , was the only one online . I confided in him . Our MSN chat was something like this , i remember only parts of it , didn't save it in history :
Shiyi : eh , Yi hong ah ... i think ee teen , sze wen and boon siew might be going to give me a surpirse later le ..
Yi hong : Haha ... How do you know ?
Shiyi : I'm not very sure one la . . . but i think should be lo , just now ee teen called , she didn't ask for me , but for my sister . . . and then its damn obvious that it is her .
Yi hong : Shiyi , you are so bad , why you so clever , should just let them surprise you ..
Shiyi : I can't blame myself for being so clever one ma ...
Yi hong : sweat ....
Shiyi : Nevermind la ... haha .. just act act a bit later la . haha .
Yi hong : Haha . So bad la you . ... ( then he said something , criticizing my acting skills )
Shiyi : people call me queen of the movie screens ok .
Shiyi : Later when they come and surprise me , i call my sis to video cam my acting skills . then i send it to you . you judge yourself . haha .
Yi hong : Sweat again ...
Shiyi : eh , i feel like giving them a counter surprise le . Like they come and surprise me , then i surprise them back . i feel like buying a pizza and set the tables for them . when they come , its like i'm already waiting for them to feast at my house .
Yi hong : okok . can also . not bad . You set all the cups and plates ready . haha . you so sure they coming to surprise you .
Shiyi : mmm .... not sure . If they really come , then ok lo . If they never come , then , the pizza i eat my self . the drinks i drink myself also lo . no harm done .
Yi hong : haha . ( he then dissapears for a few 5 to 10 minutes )
Shiyi : eh , don't tell them la . let me try surprising them back la. this one time ma . We never initiate a counter surprise before . ( and i continued like that while he was away , coz instinct told me he would rat me out )
when he came back
Yi hong : shiyi !! Go now if you want to surprise them !
Yi hong : NOW !!
Shiyi : *shocked* but i haven't bath and i still haven't finish my post le .
Yi hong : Oh ... Then , nevermind . Continue blogging la ... Enjoy yourself !
That was the end of our chat . Not heeding Yi hong's advice , i continued taking my own sweet time typing away , walking in and out the room ... having in mind that i have a few hours more to midnight .
At around 9 pm , I finally clicked the mouse to publsih my post . " Ok , this leaves me with bathing and buying the pizza , " i thought , smilling away at my master mind ruse .
But somehow , I continued staring at the monitor to see if i made any major mistakes in my post * scroll scroll scroll * ...
All of a sudden , out of no where , I see Ee Teen and Boon Siew .
I didn't know how i should have reacted . I seeked for something more natural and comforting to me . And so , I turned my face back to the monitor of the computer and started scrolling again ...
That was stupid and slow of me to react that way.
So that was it . The most embarrasing yet surprising birthday bombshell i've gotten so far .
And i was right , Yi hong ratted me out . Turns out , he gave a call to ee teen when he suddenly dissapeared from the chat room .
My friends ( Ee Teen , Boon Siew and Yi hong ) threw me a surprise on the night before my birthday ... Why am i only posting it now you ask ? Well , I've finally recovered from it .
So the surprise started like this .
It was the 21st of July 2008 , approximately around 7.45pm . There I was sitting in front of the computer , giving my " 19 year of bygones " post the finishing touches . So , type type click click ...
Suddenly , the phone rang.
I answered the phone . And , heck , it was so damn obvious that Ee Teen was at the other end of the line . The other funny thing was she kinda blew her own cover . I guess her call here to my house was to see if i was at home .
Instead of asking for me , she asked for my sister . But , I've known and heard her voice from form 2 . And her voice leaves a mark in your head once you've heard it . So , its kinda hard to just not recognise it when you hear it . Our conversation on the phone went something like this :
EeTeen : Hello ... ( I knew it was ee teen already )
Shi yi : Hello ...
EeTeen : Is Shiiiiiiiii...Rui there ? ( I was 100% sure it was Ee teen )
Shiyi : ........ * thinking why is Ee Teen asking for my sis * ... Shiii Rui aah , she went for tuition .
Ee Teen : Oh , never mind la .
Shiyi : ok ... ( the phone call ends here )
From the phone call , i knew something was going to happen before the clock strikes 12 tonight .
Tampinese have a tradition . We would gather and go to the birthday boy/girl's house at 12 midnight to give him/her a birthday surprise .
This time would be the same . So , I thought .
At around 8.oopm , I felt the need to tell someone that i've uncovered a surprise . Yi hong , who 's currently in Australia , was the only one online . I confided in him . Our MSN chat was something like this , i remember only parts of it , didn't save it in history :
Shiyi : eh , Yi hong ah ... i think ee teen , sze wen and boon siew might be going to give me a surpirse later le ..
Yi hong : Haha ... How do you know ?
Shiyi : I'm not very sure one la . . . but i think should be lo , just now ee teen called , she didn't ask for me , but for my sister . . . and then its damn obvious that it is her .
Yi hong : Shiyi , you are so bad , why you so clever , should just let them surprise you ..
Shiyi : I can't blame myself for being so clever one ma ...
Yi hong : sweat ....
Shiyi : Nevermind la ... haha .. just act act a bit later la . haha .
Yi hong : Haha . So bad la you . ... ( then he said something , criticizing my acting skills )
Shiyi : people call me queen of the movie screens ok .
Shiyi : Later when they come and surprise me , i call my sis to video cam my acting skills . then i send it to you . you judge yourself . haha .
Yi hong : Sweat again ...
Shiyi : eh , i feel like giving them a counter surprise le . Like they come and surprise me , then i surprise them back . i feel like buying a pizza and set the tables for them . when they come , its like i'm already waiting for them to feast at my house .
Yi hong : okok . can also . not bad . You set all the cups and plates ready . haha . you so sure they coming to surprise you .
Shiyi : mmm .... not sure . If they really come , then ok lo . If they never come , then , the pizza i eat my self . the drinks i drink myself also lo . no harm done .
Yi hong : haha . ( he then dissapears for a few 5 to 10 minutes )
Shiyi : eh , don't tell them la . let me try surprising them back la. this one time ma . We never initiate a counter surprise before . ( and i continued like that while he was away , coz instinct told me he would rat me out )
when he came back
Yi hong : shiyi !! Go now if you want to surprise them !
Yi hong : NOW !!
Shiyi : *shocked* but i haven't bath and i still haven't finish my post le .
Yi hong : Oh ... Then , nevermind . Continue blogging la ... Enjoy yourself !
That was the end of our chat . Not heeding Yi hong's advice , i continued taking my own sweet time typing away , walking in and out the room ... having in mind that i have a few hours more to midnight .
At around 9 pm , I finally clicked the mouse to publsih my post . " Ok , this leaves me with bathing and buying the pizza , " i thought , smilling away at my master mind ruse .
But somehow , I continued staring at the monitor to see if i made any major mistakes in my post * scroll scroll scroll * ...
All of a sudden , out of no where , I see Ee Teen and Boon Siew .
My mind went blank .
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DANGGG !!
I didn't know how i should have reacted . I seeked for something more natural and comforting to me . And so , I turned my face back to the monitor of the computer and started scrolling again ...
That was stupid and slow of me to react that way.
So that was it . The most embarrasing yet surprising birthday bombshell i've gotten so far .
And i was right , Yi hong ratted me out . Turns out , he gave a call to ee teen when he suddenly dissapeared from the chat room .
From left , ee teen , me and boon siew
Many many MANY thanks to Boon Siew and Ee Teen and also .... Yi Hong for this unforgettable event . Thank you very much Boon Siew and Ee Teen for the time , sweat and effort both of you spent preparing the surprise . Thank you for bringing the rambutans , durians , dragon fruit , mangosteens , papayas , peanuts , sweet-sour stuff , junk food , pandan chiffon cake and Vanhoutten Macademia chocolates .
Pei Ying (white) , Boon Siew (green), Me and Ee Teen (grey) at the Tampin Hill water fall doing ROCKSTAR poses
I had a wonderful day .
Labels: Unforgettables
Posted by Paus are delicious
Funny Review
Date:
Friday, July 25, 2008
Time:
6:15 PM
Have you watch The Dark Knight which stars Heath Ledger and Christian Bale ??
Well , I haven't . And I am dying to watch it . Those who watched it are constantly talking and complimenting it . Never have i seen such compliments directed at a superhero movie before .
I came across this review in the STAR newspaper today . And my mind's all set .
I'm going to watch this movie no matter what .
This is how the movie review of the Dark Knight went :
Ladies and gentlemen , the year 's cinematic juggernaut has arrived . If you see only one film this year , then this must be it . The Dark Knight has my vote for film of the year . If you miss this film , then I feel sorry for you . So sorry . Very sorry .
I'm sorry , am I being condescending ? Sorry - Hisham Zulkifli
Rating: 5 out of 5 stars
Short , Simple and Totally Enough to Draw me to GSC .
Labels: Discoveries
Posted by Paus are delicious
0 % lust ??!
Date:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Time:
12:05 PM
Your Deadly Sins |
 Envy: 40% Greed: 40% Pride: 40% Wrath: 40% Gluttony: 20% Sloth: 20% Lust: 0% Chance You'll Go to Hell: 29% You will die in a duel. |
Labels: Discoveries
Posted by Paus are delicious
19 years of bygones
Date:
Monday, July 21, 2008
Time:
12:20 PM
This is the last day of my 19 years . I'm going to hit the big 20 soon . Yep . . . Old already . A lot has changed since i was born .
1989 - 1 year old
For example , i've lost my cute looks as a baby .
1989 - 1 year old
For example , i've lost my cute looks as a baby .
Perfect , smooth , fair and radiant skinned . Sammi Cheng couldn't beat me with her SK II . Qiqi couldn't beat me with her SK II Miracle water . Zhang Zi Yi couldn't beat me with Garnier .
But that was once upon a time when i was just 1 year old . I think i looked super cute ler ...
To come to think of it , my mum should have brought me for auditions for MamiPoko diapers and milk powder comercials . I could have been a child star !!!
Enough of that . My head's growing bigger .
1990 - 2 years old
You see that white cloth on my head . That's a diaper . I remember that i used to love disguising as a bride with that on my head as the veil .
My elder brother would start singing , " Pom .. pom ... pompom ... "( the song that comes on when the brides walk into the church ) . And i would then walk into the room holding bunga telurs my mum got from Malay weddings . Me and my imaginations .
1991 - 3 years old
I remember that my family and I stayed in a hotel which had a pool . And i wanted so badly to just swim in the pool . I shrieked , cried and pestered my dad to let me swim in the pool . But because of the chicken pox . I couldn't , at first . We waited till it was really late at night , till nobody was there and only me and my dad were alone . Then , hehe .. i got to swim with chicken pox in the pool .
I wondered if anybody got chicken pox after that night .
1993 - 5 years old
She's now furthering her studies in Australia . Miss her very much .
P/S : Wan xin , I was taller than you .
1994 - 6 years old
To come to think of it , my mum should have brought me for auditions for MamiPoko diapers and milk powder comercials . I could have been a child star !!!
Enough of that . My head's growing bigger .
1990 - 2 years old
My elder brother would start singing , " Pom .. pom ... pompom ... "( the song that comes on when the brides walk into the church ) . And i would then walk into the room holding bunga telurs my mum got from Malay weddings . Me and my imaginations .
1991 - 3 years old
I use to love this shawl very much , makes me look like a little red indian
I was 3 years old back then . We were in Cameron highlands . And i think i had the chicken pox during the trip . I remember that my family and I stayed in a hotel which had a pool . And i wanted so badly to just swim in the pool . I shrieked , cried and pestered my dad to let me swim in the pool . But because of the chicken pox . I couldn't , at first . We waited till it was really late at night , till nobody was there and only me and my dad were alone . Then , hehe .. i got to swim with chicken pox in the pool .
I wondered if anybody got chicken pox after that night .
1993 - 5 years old
My elder bro , younger bro , me and ( i think ) Wan Xin
Wan Xin's one of my BFFs .We went to the same primary and secondary school together . Actually , we went to the same kindergarten too . Only , our friendship bloomed later . We weren't in the same class then . But who knew we would be such close friends in the end .
She's now furthering her studies in Australia . Miss her very much .
P/S : Wan xin , I was taller than you .
1994 - 6 years old
This was my kindergarten graduation day at Tampin Chinese Methodist Church . Me and my classmates were doing the Newspaper dance . Funny right ?
We were holding newspapers , doing newpaper-tossing-moves on stage . Our teachers would have us stay back after school to practice the dance moves .
There was another group of 5 year olds practicing an Indian dance for graduation day . I actually envied them because thr Indian costumes looked so much better than our costumes .
Somehow , I also found it a bit embarrasing dancing around with newspaper and making tossing-like actions .
P/S : Yee kim's the one , on my right , wearing a bangle and Boon Siew's the one on my left . I'm the one who looks miserable in make-up and red shoes to match my lipstick .
1995 - 7 years old
We were holding newspapers , doing newpaper-tossing-moves on stage . Our teachers would have us stay back after school to practice the dance moves .
There was another group of 5 year olds practicing an Indian dance for graduation day . I actually envied them because thr Indian costumes looked so much better than our costumes .
Somehow , I also found it a bit embarrasing dancing around with newspaper and making tossing-like actions .
P/S : Yee kim's the one , on my right , wearing a bangle and Boon Siew's the one on my left . I'm the one who looks miserable in make-up and red shoes to match my lipstick .
1995 - 7 years old
This was my first trip overseas with my parents and 2 brothers .
I was only 7 years old then and all i could remember was all the fun stuff that happened . I couldn't remember any sceneries or famous buildings . Didn't know how to appreciate and admire them then .
It was really fun going to Disney Land and Universal Studios . There were so many rides to go on . We didn't have enough time to ride them all .
Those were the days when i was enlightened that Genting Highland's rollercoasters weren't that WOW after all .
Seaworld in New Zealand , Look at my HAAWT body
If you have kids next time , bring them to New Zealand . Seriously , they'll enjoy , remember and would want to go return to NZ .
My dad brought me and my siblings to places like Seaworld , Mazes and Zoos . We had the opportunity to feed baby sheeps , witness how the wool of a sheep was shaved , visit the Maori people , and see a glacial .
Australia's Wonderland
We also went to Australia after NZ to visit my aunt . Look at my younger brother's head . Its under that fella's arm pit .
That's my 10th birthday . It was the first time i had a birthday party .
I remember myself being super nervous . I was nervous and wondered if i looked pretty in my dress , I wondered was the food we catered yummy enough to my impress my friends , I wondered would my friend be bored out at my party and leave before the party started .
I was super self-conscious when i was in primary school .
Yi hong , friend and neighbour , thought i succumbed to Autism or some kind of mental disorder . He said that whenever he and his brother came tp my house . I would AUTOMATICALLY * pooofff * ... vaporize .
2001 - 13 years old
Virgo Star Cruise to Phuket
They had many performances on the cruise and the performances were all hosted by Jason XX . I remember having a huge crush on him because of his charm and good looks .
Pity , my Wake-Up-look hair style wasn't strong enough to send out magnetic waves .
2003 - 15 years old
Pity , my Wake-Up-look hair style wasn't strong enough to send out magnetic waves .
2003 - 15 years old
Went to China with my family and neighbours . That's the Great Wall of China .
We , kids , went with the intention of climbing every steps of the Great Wall . Little did we knew that it was 6400 km long . Some of the steps were as high as our knees ... Maybe not as high but about the same height .
The most memorable part of the trip was at a street which sold all kinds of food . Yes , ALL types . Got chicken , pork , beef , mutton , vege , frog , smelly tofu , cockcroach , grasshopper , sparrow , beetle , centipede , etc ...
I tried the centipede :) .
Mahatma Ghandi took a photo with me !!! Consider him the luckiest man on earth . At least , the one made fom wax at London's Madam Tussaud's Wax Museum is .
There was a wax photographer right in the middle of the path for us to walk there . Lots of people bumped into it and apologized immediately . Only after a few seconds did they realize they apologized to a lump of colourful WAX .
2004 - 16 years old
That was Italy . Can't remember much .There were LOTS of beautiful sceneries of the dolomites and architecture of the buildings .
We were at the floating market of Thailand . Thailand was fun because we saw lots of Mak Nyahs . They looked very very beautiful .
They had long slender legs , tiny waist , big boobs , long silky hair and contagiously perfect smiles . You wouldn't realize they were actually guys if they kept their mouths shut .
We went for a tranvestite show . After the show , the tranvestites would line up in a row and draw audiences to take photos with them . One of them accidentally exposed one of her her nipple without realizing it . She continued smilling and drawing people to her ... Ewww ...
2005 - 17 years old
This was at a seminar at a cement factory . Yup , a cement factory . We even stayed one night there . It was suppose to help us prepare for our SPM Sejarah and Moral paper .
2006 - 18 years old
They had long slender legs , tiny waist , big boobs , long silky hair and contagiously perfect smiles . You wouldn't realize they were actually guys if they kept their mouths shut .
We went for a tranvestite show . After the show , the tranvestites would line up in a row and draw audiences to take photos with them . One of them accidentally exposed one of her her nipple without realizing it . She continued smilling and drawing people to her ... Ewww ...
2005 - 17 years old
This was at a seminar at a cement factory . Yup , a cement factory . We even stayed one night there . It was suppose to help us prepare for our SPM Sejarah and Moral paper .
2006 - 18 years old
This was the Cambodia Vietnam trip . This trip was a very educational one . I learnt a lot of history on Vietnam and Cambodia . The war history to be exact .
By the end of the trip , I was very much filled with war photos and stories . Besides , I got food poisoning the whole one week there . I think it was due to the fried insect cocktail or the duck foetus i ate there ... lost 2 kgs . Which was a good thing for me .
2007 - 19 years old
By the end of the trip , I was very much filled with war photos and stories . Besides , I got food poisoning the whole one week there . I think it was due to the fried insect cocktail or the duck foetus i ate there ... lost 2 kgs . Which was a good thing for me .
2007 - 19 years old
Michelle , me , Jason , Melvin and my younger bro
That's my genius cousin in the middle who is the same age as me . This was right after STPM . Spain was a good get away from studies .
At the end of the Spain trip , my cousin's friend named Maria treated us to a super expensive lunch . Her dad was a very rich businessman . And my cousin was a very close friend to their daughter .
We dined at a famous restaurant called Casa Lucia . The king of Spain once dined there . And he would always order fried eggs with fries . Seems like a very simple dish , but it didn't taste that simple at all . Me and my brother never felt happier to be there . We got to try what the king of spain loved .
Besides the fried eggs and fries , we were treated to a drink called Sangria , Jamon ( Spanish pork-leg slices ) with bread , grilled beef and creme puffs ...
And it all cost 537 euros ... times 4 and you get a RM 2000+ lunch .
These are the most memorable moments of my life . This post shall act as my fridge to preserve these 19 years of memories . Of course , there are a lot more . But , these are what came to my mind first . There's too much on trips with friends to tell about . Therefore , it shall be in another post .
At the end of the Spain trip , my cousin's friend named Maria treated us to a super expensive lunch . Her dad was a very rich businessman . And my cousin was a very close friend to their daughter .
We dined at a famous restaurant called Casa Lucia . The king of Spain once dined there . And he would always order fried eggs with fries . Seems like a very simple dish , but it didn't taste that simple at all . Me and my brother never felt happier to be there . We got to try what the king of spain loved .
Besides the fried eggs and fries , we were treated to a drink called Sangria , Jamon ( Spanish pork-leg slices ) with bread , grilled beef and creme puffs ...
And it all cost 537 euros ... times 4 and you get a RM 2000+ lunch .
These are the most memorable moments of my life . This post shall act as my fridge to preserve these 19 years of memories . Of course , there are a lot more . But , these are what came to my mind first . There's too much on trips with friends to tell about . Therefore , it shall be in another post .
Labels: Travel, Unforgettables
Posted by Paus are delicious
Gloomy
Date:
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Time:
11:49 AM
A phone call from Sabah , last thursday , was the culprit . It gave me and my parents all the hope that i would be heading to somewhere else other than IMU . It gave us hope that our burdens would be lightened for both me and my parents .
Another call , the following day , was the accomplice . It succeeded in heightening our trust towards it . It put smiles on our faces for a few days .
I had my doubts that these calls did not guarantee me anything .
My doubts were right .
The calls were just false hope .
The results were out yesterday and ... our hopes were shattered .
I felt all the happiness drain out from my body . I couldn't smile . It was as if the ends of my lips were paralysed . I could gather no " happy energy " to push the ends of my lips up to make out a smile . For hours , I was overwhelmed by sadness , disappointment , despondency and indignation .
My dad , of all the people , cared the most about where I was going to study . My education , in a local or a private university , was a heaven and hell difference to him . To my dad , admission into a local university was equivalent to striking a RM300,000 lottery . It would also mean easier days for me in many many ways . It was crystal-clear that his dissapointment peaked among us all .
I sat down with my parents that night and we chat about the spot I was in . Turns out , I still had a grain-tiny chance at Sabah . But still , it was unlikely to happen . There was a moment of disturbing-cold silence in our chat . At least for 5 minutes , 3 of us sat there speechless , setting our empty eyesights away from each others' , as if we mourning over someone's death .
At one point , there was this inner voice that shouted repeatedly , " Say something ! " I tried to think of something more positive and cheerful to say to break the cold silence . But , I just couldn't . It was too hard for me to do so . I was restrained by my emotions .
It was the longest 5 minutes in my 20 years of life .
I can't help but feel that I've let my parents down . I've never felt so sorry in my life . Never .
It is always raining these days . The sun doesn't shine as often as before . The clouds are always shielding the sunlight away from the surface of the earth .
I hope to see sunshine . I hope that the clouds would just go and leave no remains . I hope to see cloudless blue skies . I hope to see the sun's full and warming rays .
I want my confidence and happiness back . I want the sadness and under dog feeling gone . I want my clear and un-troubled mind back . I want to see myself radiate with joy and passion like before .
I need Mr.Time to work faster in washing away these sorrows .
It is clear to me that we humans plan our ways without knowing the outcome . We don't know what is ahead of our paths . Its like we are walking in the dark . We have no idea whether the path before us leads us into a tiang lampu or a King Coil mattress .
We plan our ways . But , the ultimate plan is in God's hands . He knows what's best for us physically , emotionally and spiritually .
If I went to Sabah , I would have to work super hard to catch up on what I've missed , I wouldn't have any seniors passing me tips and notes and I would need to share my room with 3 other girls ( I don't like sharing rooms ) .
If Sabah is not what He planned for me , therefore , I'm guessing I might not survive from homesick , Wee Sim-sick and Semabok burger-sick .
Semabok Burger le , no joke ... Me ?? Separated ?? Semabok Burger ?!? Walao . Cannotla .
IMU better .
P/S : I'm totally OK . Just moody :) .
Another call , the following day , was the accomplice . It succeeded in heightening our trust towards it . It put smiles on our faces for a few days .
I had my doubts that these calls did not guarantee me anything .
My doubts were right .
The calls were just false hope .
The results were out yesterday and ... our hopes were shattered .
I felt all the happiness drain out from my body . I couldn't smile . It was as if the ends of my lips were paralysed . I could gather no " happy energy " to push the ends of my lips up to make out a smile . For hours , I was overwhelmed by sadness , disappointment , despondency and indignation .
My dad , of all the people , cared the most about where I was going to study . My education , in a local or a private university , was a heaven and hell difference to him . To my dad , admission into a local university was equivalent to striking a RM300,000 lottery . It would also mean easier days for me in many many ways . It was crystal-clear that his dissapointment peaked among us all .
I sat down with my parents that night and we chat about the spot I was in . Turns out , I still had a grain-tiny chance at Sabah . But still , it was unlikely to happen . There was a moment of disturbing-cold silence in our chat . At least for 5 minutes , 3 of us sat there speechless , setting our empty eyesights away from each others' , as if we mourning over someone's death .
At one point , there was this inner voice that shouted repeatedly , " Say something ! " I tried to think of something more positive and cheerful to say to break the cold silence . But , I just couldn't . It was too hard for me to do so . I was restrained by my emotions .
It was the longest 5 minutes in my 20 years of life .
I can't help but feel that I've let my parents down . I've never felt so sorry in my life . Never .
It is always raining these days . The sun doesn't shine as often as before . The clouds are always shielding the sunlight away from the surface of the earth .
I hope to see sunshine . I hope that the clouds would just go and leave no remains . I hope to see cloudless blue skies . I hope to see the sun's full and warming rays .
I want my confidence and happiness back . I want the sadness and under dog feeling gone . I want my clear and un-troubled mind back . I want to see myself radiate with joy and passion like before .
I need Mr.Time to work faster in washing away these sorrows .
It is clear to me that we humans plan our ways without knowing the outcome . We don't know what is ahead of our paths . Its like we are walking in the dark . We have no idea whether the path before us leads us into a tiang lampu or a King Coil mattress .
We plan our ways . But , the ultimate plan is in God's hands . He knows what's best for us physically , emotionally and spiritually .
If I went to Sabah , I would have to work super hard to catch up on what I've missed , I wouldn't have any seniors passing me tips and notes and I would need to share my room with 3 other girls ( I don't like sharing rooms ) .
If Sabah is not what He planned for me , therefore , I'm guessing I might not survive from homesick , Wee Sim-sick and Semabok burger-sick .
Semabok Burger le , no joke ... Me ?? Separated ?? Semabok Burger ?!? Walao . Cannotla .
IMU better .
P/S : I'm totally OK . Just moody :) .
Labels: E-mo-ments
Posted by Paus are delicious
South African Food
Date:
Friday, July 11, 2008
Time:
11:25 AM
OYSTERS
South Africa is known for its oyster . If you have a serious craving for fresh raw oysters , take a trip to Knysna of South Africa . Knysna is known for their oysters . They hold annual oyster opening competitions .
He was one of the participants
There is a oyster factory / restaurant there , where oysters are cultured , reared and sold .
Mr."Darlie" showed off his white teeth
There are differences between cultured ( bottom picture ) and wild ( top picture ) oysters . Cultured oysters tasted more salty while wild ones tasted more creamy . Besides , both have slight differences in their appearances . 
Since we were there , we had no excuses not to give it a try . The oysters were sold at different prices depending on the sizes . We ordered 6 oysters . Each oyster costed us RM 8 * choke * .
We seeked the waiters help to guild us on how oysters were eaten the South African way .The freshly opened raw oystes were to be eaten with lemon juice , pepper and tobasco sauce .
He gave us a 101 on oyster-eating:
scrapped , lemon juiced , tobasco-ed and peppered oyster
Besides the oysters , there were pies . Beef pies sold at all supermarkets . So i guess it was one of South Africa's specialties . They had different flavoured pies . These 2 were more common .
- Scrap out the oyster from its shell until none of the flesh is attached on the shell .
- Drip a few drops of tobasco onto the oyster .
- Followed by a few drops of lemon juice .
- Grind some black pepper onto the oyster .
- Dig your ear wax and mix it with the oyster ... I'm joking .
- Lastly , gulp or chew it ... your choice . ( Chew it , it cost RM 8 for one ler , more worth it chewing it .)
scrapped , lemon juiced , tobasco-ed and peppered oyster
I had my share of cultured and wild oysters . Its slimy and salty . It is not chewy at all . It was an interesting experience to savour the oysters of South Africa . I went for Renaissance Hotel ' s seafood bonanza a week ago . They had a whole counter of raw oysters . To be honest , i felt like puking upon the sight of it . Tried them , but it didn't taste like South African ones . Bunga Raya fried oyster taste a lot better .
PIES & SAUSAGE ROLLS
Besides the oysters , there were pies . Beef pies sold at all supermarkets . So i guess it was one of South Africa's specialties . They had different flavoured pies . These 2 were more common .
Steak and Cheese which tasted like hot dog flavour
black pepper flavoured
black pepper flavoured
It tasted very good . Super yummy . Super... Duuuperly...Heavenly tasted .
Beef sausage wrapped in a layer of puff pastry .
Beef sausage wrapped in a layer of puff pastry .
Both the pie and sausage roll were very filling it costed us about RM 3.50 . The pie tasted better .
SAMOOSAS
SAMOOSAS
Its Rm 1 sth for each . This samoosa tasted sweet like sweet potato . Pravesh's samoosas tasted better .
Butternuts ( the ones packed in the red bags and scattered on the floor)
CHEESE
We went to a cheese farm at South Africa . We didn't get to see how the cheese was produced . But , we were able to sample them . People there buy cheese like buying rice . We came to the cheese house where we got to sample cheese . Upon walking into the house , our noses were tortured by the pungent stench of cheese .
Would you dare to try a chunck ??
CHOCOLATE
There were a few Cadbury chocolate bars which could only be found in South Africa . This is one of them . Let me present to you * drum roll *
Cadbury Question chocolate bars with the question : Are you happy ?
Butternuts ( the ones packed in the red bags and scattered on the floor)
CHEESE
We went to a cheese farm at South Africa . We didn't get to see how the cheese was produced . But , we were able to sample them . People there buy cheese like buying rice . We came to the cheese house where we got to sample cheese . Upon walking into the house , our noses were tortured by the pungent stench of cheese .
CHOCOLATE
There were a few Cadbury chocolate bars which could only be found in South Africa . This is one of them . Let me present to you * drum roll *
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Cadbury Question chocolate bars with the question : Are you happy ?
Special right ? Each bar has a different question on it . And when you tear open the packaging . You are suppose to choose an answer .
Yes ?? No ??
Yes ?? No ??
I couldn't make out what the white paste in between the chocolate was . It is so sweet that diabetic patients would need to amputate their limbs if they swallowed it . So dam sweet .
That's the end of the food that i hunted down in South Africa .
That's the end of the food that i hunted down in South Africa .
Posted by Paus are delicious
implicit affections
Date:
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Time:
12:38 PM
PS : i have highlighted the important parts for easier reading . Posted this not to flaunt what i have . It serves as a reminder to me . Oh ya , keep in mind that my relationship before " something changed " was not always so negative . There were happy and unforgettable moments too . Its just this time , i felt compelled to post this up to remind myself of the things that i realized . Happy reading :) .
Once , i had the feeling that i was the only one in a relationship , clapping with an imaginative hand.
I felt self-counsciously distressed . I felt embarrassed . I felt that i had just slapped myself in the face . The feeling is like how you would feel when your " hi " and " hellos" are not returned , but 10 times magnified . I felt a pinch at my heart .
I felt that it might just have been his puppy love that started it all .
I felt that he had never put serious thought into the relationship . I felt that he might have just initiated the relationship just for the rush of thrill at the early beginnings of our relationship . I felt cheated . Again , i felt another pinch at my heart .
Often , he kept me waiting for him . Phone call , dates , etc...
I wondered where i stood in his heart , how important was i to him . If he'd auctioned me off , would i be regarded as - dirt or invaluable ( valuable beyond estimation ) . It pinched my heart when i realize i was thinking of where i ranked among the others in his life when it should be a known fact .
He did not constantly say that he loved me . He did not send lovey-dovey messages . He did speak mushily to me . He did not have the thirst and craving for me as i had for him . It did not seem like he cared for me . My heart was squashed this time .
But , something changed .
Last week was the first week of all local university orientation . He was busy all day and i figured it would be best that i , being the annoyance in his life , not disturb him till his day was over . I didn't know what time his day would end . Therefore i could only wait for his call .
His actions surprised me .
I didn't set any rules stating that he had to call me everynight . But , he did . He called me and talked to me about his day . I did the same . It was a hectic day for him . Choir practice , making new friends , being ragged by the seniors all day , etc ... It surely kept him busy . And by the end of the day , he would be jaded . Despite all the activities he had , he managed to give me some of his time each day . I was touched .
He went back to Melaka for the weekends . So did I . There I was complaining that i had money shortage to him and that it was a problem for me to treat my dad as an atm machine as we drove around in the car . We drove pass Maybank . And his car came to a halt all of a sudden . I stared at him . And he blurted that he'll get me some money . Awestrucked , i declined immediately .
It was then time to part ways again . He drove me to Melaka Sentral . Before alighting his car , he put his arms around me . Me , being conscious of the public eyes , pulled away just after a few seconds . But , he held on . There was this glint in his eyes that told me he appreciated me .
I was touched . His actions told me everything i longed to know from him .
I felt stupid that i created conflicts again and again because of my insecurities.
I was so immature .
Why didn't i see this side of him ?
I was flooded with guilt . Guilt that i created unnecessary conflict ; guilt that i wasted his time ; guilt that i put the blame on him whenever there was conflict ; guilt that he had to tolerate my behaviour . I felt very sorry for strangling him and being so selfish .
Thinking back , he has never really started an argument with me or refuted my cruel remarks of him . He just absorbed it in . I guessed he understood that it was just petty issues and refuting my words would do more harm than cure to our relationship .
I felt through his actions that DEEP down ... he cared .
People around us convey their love not only through spoken words . But , silent and low-profiled actions .
Your eyes alone cannot see their love for you ; your ears alone cannot hear their affection for you . You need the help of your heart to feel it , with your eyes and your ears as aid .
Take a pause in life. Enlarge your eyes , clear your ears , open your heart . The tiniest actions have the greatest meanings .
Implicit affections.That's what i call it.
I felt that he had never put serious thought into the relationship . I felt that he might have just initiated the relationship just for the rush of thrill at the early beginnings of our relationship . I felt cheated . Again , i felt another pinch at my heart .
Often , he kept me waiting for him . Phone call , dates , etc...
I wondered where i stood in his heart , how important was i to him . If he'd auctioned me off , would i be regarded as - dirt or invaluable ( valuable beyond estimation ) . It pinched my heart when i realize i was thinking of where i ranked among the others in his life when it should be a known fact .
He did not constantly say that he loved me . He did not send lovey-dovey messages . He did speak mushily to me . He did not have the thirst and craving for me as i had for him . It did not seem like he cared for me . My heart was squashed this time .
But , something changed .
Last week was the first week of all local university orientation . He was busy all day and i figured it would be best that i , being the annoyance in his life , not disturb him till his day was over . I didn't know what time his day would end . Therefore i could only wait for his call .
His actions surprised me .
I didn't set any rules stating that he had to call me everynight . But , he did . He called me and talked to me about his day . I did the same . It was a hectic day for him . Choir practice , making new friends , being ragged by the seniors all day , etc ... It surely kept him busy . And by the end of the day , he would be jaded . Despite all the activities he had , he managed to give me some of his time each day . I was touched .
He went back to Melaka for the weekends . So did I . There I was complaining that i had money shortage to him and that it was a problem for me to treat my dad as an atm machine as we drove around in the car . We drove pass Maybank . And his car came to a halt all of a sudden . I stared at him . And he blurted that he'll get me some money . Awestrucked , i declined immediately .
It was then time to part ways again . He drove me to Melaka Sentral . Before alighting his car , he put his arms around me . Me , being conscious of the public eyes , pulled away just after a few seconds . But , he held on . There was this glint in his eyes that told me he appreciated me .
I was touched . His actions told me everything i longed to know from him .
I felt stupid that i created conflicts again and again because of my insecurities.
I was so immature .
Why didn't i see this side of him ?
I was flooded with guilt . Guilt that i created unnecessary conflict ; guilt that i wasted his time ; guilt that i put the blame on him whenever there was conflict ; guilt that he had to tolerate my behaviour . I felt very sorry for strangling him and being so selfish .
Thinking back , he has never really started an argument with me or refuted my cruel remarks of him . He just absorbed it in . I guessed he understood that it was just petty issues and refuting my words would do more harm than cure to our relationship .
I felt through his actions that DEEP down ... he cared .
People around us convey their love not only through spoken words . But , silent and low-profiled actions .
Your eyes alone cannot see their love for you ; your ears alone cannot hear their affection for you . You need the help of your heart to feel it , with your eyes and your ears as aid .
Take a pause in life. Enlarge your eyes , clear your ears , open your heart . The tiniest actions have the greatest meanings .
Implicit affections.That's what i call it.
Labels: E-mo-ments
Posted by Paus are delicious
don't cry joni
Date:
Sunday, July 6, 2008
Time:
8:01 PM
This song caught my attention . Don't cry Joni , by Conway Twitty and Loretta Lynn .
Loretta Lynn and Conway Twitty
Its a story between a 15 year old Joni and a 22 year old Jimmy . Joni is Jimmy's next door neighbour . Joni loves Jimmy . But Jimmy was not sure about his love for Joni and rejected her . The story doesn't end here . Wait for the video to load . And you can have a karaoke party .
Labels: Discoveries
Posted by Paus are delicious
11 months
Date:
Tuesday, July 1, 2008
Time:
9:21 PM
Honey >> Sweety Pie >> Darling >> Sweetheart >> Pumpkin >> Tubiee >> Sim Sim >> Teo
Happy 11th month anniversary ! :-)
Labels: Love Life
Posted by Paus are delicious